Just another happy girl, right?

If you can't/don't want to read the index cards, here's what they say:
I look happy.
I have friends.
My parents love me.
I go to parties.
I go on dates.
I have a 4.0
I must be happy
right?
Wrong.
I tricked you.
Don't worry
most people fall for it.
The truth?
I'm depressed.
I'm a cutter.
I fear rejection
and crave perfection.
I won't eat for days
then binge during one meal.
I cry myself
to sleep
every
single
night.
So next time?
Look a little harder
reach out.
You never know
someone might need
YOU.

There are ways to reach out and be involved! Check out the following websites for more information:
http://www.twloha.com/
http://www.save.org/
http://selfinjury.org/indexnet.html
http://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/
http://www.nami.org/

The music in this video is "Six Days At The Bottom Of The Ocean" by Explosions in the Sky.

Category:

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Tags:

• personal
• vlog
• depression
• mental health
• awareness
• psychology
• anorexia
• eating disorder
• ED
• binge eating disorder
• BED
• perfectionism
• perfectionist
• perfect
• control
• self-harm
• self-injury
• help
• TWLOHA

[stclairose]

@Raskolnikhov Are you fucking kidding me?! YOU are the reason that people DO kill themselves, your insensitivity and rudeness. I'm sorry that you get your kicks out of insulting people on the internet, but don't be so naive as to think that 1. this is a "cutesy little video," 2. seeking sympathy shows someone is "not in the dumps," and 3. that you're not part of the damn problem. Thanks for contributing to the stigma and not having a heart.

[dcook32p]

And that goes for anyone else, as well. If you need someone to talk to, just send me a message.

[kresimircindric]

@stclairose I'm very sorry that you're depressed. :(

Hopefully your materialistic, atheist views will give you inspiration and comfort. You understand that sadness is a condition of the brain, an electro-chemical process, a machine that has malfunctioned and needs repair.

You must be strong, however difficult that may be - depression is a difficult, potentially deadly, illness (been there myself). I hope you get it treated promptly and with success, and that soon it becomes just a bad memory.

[brownbigb]

@stclairose thank you. i do listen to it. but i really hope other do as well. i hope your school is going well.

[cantstoptheseeker]

Hey gurl, u can't make this the last vid for 6 months, I'm worried about ya and I don't even know u.

Reassure me, make some more vids : )

[stclairose]

@brownbigb You are a great inspiration on here! Listen to your story, I hope you realize how great it is. :) Thank you.

[TaysieGraves]

@brownbigb Thank you. I finally got a job :) It's stressful, but it's a stress I'm thankful for lol. I'd love to do animal rescue. I feel like that's my calling. Congrats on becoming free and good luck with future goodness.

[brownbigb]

@TaysieGraves cont. it took me a long time to realize this, i had severe problems with fight or flight, anger, depression. realizing to let go if something is out of my control, and act if i am able to control it, changed my life. literally i became free. i learned from dealing with animal rescue, but i have been stress free. i do experience hardship, that is external, but no stress, i simply don't allow it to get in. eating healthy and exercising also help greatly. good luck.

[brownbigb]

@TaysieGraves a lot of people don't realize that stress is self imposed. any situation can create stress, to some crossing the street is unbearable. but ultimately we decide if and how we let each situation effect us. you shouldn't stress as a woman, rather as a person. but stressing does not help anything. if it is something that is not in your control, stressing will hurt you, but will not effect the situation. if it is in your control, resolving/dealing with it is what's needed.

[brownbigb]

@brownbigb also, you learn amazing things from them. the ability to let go of unimaginable suffering, and move forward and love others and be available to accept love, regardless of the past. it amazes me how they can be happy after what they go through, yet they live in the now, and relinquish the past. they made me realize it is possible, even for us. i hope you find happiness, i really do. when you do, you will make someone really lucky. forget about the idiots commenting. they don't get it.

[brownbigb]

this is a powerful video. thank you for making it. you are a very pretty and very smart person. very thoughtful as well. i would also risk saying interesting. girls like you are not easy to find. it saddens me to know this is how you feel. i have seen very good results with people who got involved in cat/dog rescue, when innocent, helpless little creatures depend on you, you forget about yourself. i know i have. since i have been working with rescue, i have not had time to think about myself.

[stclairose]

@PoopShitMario I am a strong proponent of men's rights and will do what I can. I am aware of the unfortunate statistics.