So, do you know that one boy that everyone thinks is absolutely stunning? The one boy whose name is mentioned, and every girl in the room sighs just at the thought? Well I had one of those.
Actually, I had had a few. But this one... well, this one was completely different.
I'd kissed a lot of different, good-looking boys, but trust me when I say that none of them compared to this one.
He had big, beautiful brown eyes. His hair was light but not anywhere near blonde, and his smile... don't even get me started.
No one stood a chance against him. Just... it was insanely impossible. And hell, I knew he had the looks of a god, but not the personality of one--until I spoke to him.
This boy was a seventeen-year-old gentleman in the flesh. Weird, right? Even with alcohol in his system and some kind of smoke filling his lungs, he looked out for me. And that made me fall for him, above everything--even his stunning smile, sparkling eyes, and harmonious voice.
And when he kissed me... shit, I thought I was going to pass out. Like, honestly, I don't know how I didn't.
It kind of happened like this:
A few of my friends and I were walking when he and a friend of his were walking on the opposite side of the street--at the same time. The two of them came over and asked our names, ages, etc. I'd known he was seventeen--he didn't have to tell me. And, anyway, I already knew him--we were talking for an entire week before that, but this was actually the first REAL conversation I had with him. Already, my knees were shaking and my fingers felt like they were going to fall off (not just because it was insanely cold). We hung out with him and his friends for a little while, and he was standing by my side the entire time, asking me questions and actually trying to get to know me.
Imagine how you would feel if the hottest, most gorgeous guy you knew was talking to you... and multiply it by a thousand. That's exactly what I felt, and then some.
The real feelings for him came when his friends were trying to make us go to a party at one of their friends' houses. Of course, there'd be drugs and liquor, and I had already explained to him that I didn't get involved in anything like that. So, in my defense, he told his friends that we didn't want to go; that they'd go when my friends and I left.
But his friends didn't give up, and he was quickly getting annoyed. So, he sighed and turned to me, asking, "Do you want to take a walk?"
I wanted to scream, "Of course, are you insane?!" Instead, I played it cool--as best I could. "S-sure."
And so I walked away with him, being completely blown away by him. He was by far the most amazing, stunning, indescribable human being I'd ever laid eyes on in my life, and he was by MY side. The way he made me feel was beyond special. To know that, even for only a few moments, I'd be the only girl with him, it made me feel as if I was the most beautiful person in the world. And I needed that. I needed that feeling, and I'd finally found it.
When he kissed me... I don't remember much of it. Sure, it tasted wonderful (like Bud Light) and his arms around me were the only support for my weak knees, but I was so concentrated on doing everything perfectly that I didn't really have time to count the butterflies in my stomach.
And especially when he told me to "hit him up" the next day, I actually had hope for the first time ever. Maybe I'm really worth something, I thought.
So that was the reason I remained smiling, for the following week. You know, until him and his ex-girlfriend got back together and their "love" was plastered all over Facebook. (Honestly, I didn't need to know that she was going to pick him up from work, or they were going to take a shower together. I honestly didn't need that pain; I couldn't afford it. Not in my state of mind.)
I don't know how long it'll take me to get over this. Every person I see, is immediately compared to him. And they don't even reach my expectations anymore. He's the best. And now that I've had the best, I know that I can't ever do better.
"And this time just maybe
Maybe you went a little far
I'm sick of crying about,
About your new flame
That's soon to burn out."
-Trash .. Demi Lovato.
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"I look like death but I guess that's what high school does to you.."by iLoveTelena184 views
Reminded me of Drake's song 'Marvin's Room' at the end a bit, but it amazing. Girl you fall too fast, you'll find someone better than him. TRUST ME.
KaylaaahDopee2 4 months ago
@KaylaaahDopee2 That's what I was going for .. ahaha because of this whole thing, I've been listening to that song and Trash by demi lovato because they kinda fit the situation .. xD
iLoveTelena 4 months ago