Forever [IIL Season 2] Chapter 18

*Railey’s P.O.V.*

The next couple weeks went by the same, but they was a bit awkward. Yeah, Tori is still living with us and Nick and I are still just “friends” for now. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about this whole situation with Nick, and it pretty much comes down to this: I actually have no choice whether I want to get rid of Nick for good or not. I’ll have his child then we’ll have to go through all that custody crap, and there’s no way I’m putting out child through that. I had to go through it at one point in my life - it’s not cool. Then again, my dad was a drug-head. He loved me and mom SO much, but the drugs pretty much consumed all his time and life. So mom just drew the line and called it quits with him, which hurt me a lot. Even though I was only about six or seven at the time, it was hell. Mom and dad always screaming at each other, threatening one-another that if they didn’t do so and such then they’d take me and the other parent would never see me again. It made me feel like the cause of all their fights, but it was definitely the drugs. My father had used them so much that he actually got my mom doing some of them. Thankfully, she quickly quit when she nearly died of an over-amount use of heroine. It was scary stuff, but I made it through.

Which means I can definitely make it through this.

I’ve said many times before, but I don’t care. I’ll say it again: Nick’s a great guy, he just doesn’t know what he’s got going on in his life right now. I know he loves me, and I love him too, but... let’s get real. It’s hard to take someone back after they’ve cheated on you... three times. With the same girl.

This brings us back to the “not having a choice in this” part. Well, I’m going to need help with this baby. Mom can’t be there 24-7, but Nick can be when I need him. A baby is a two-person job. Maybe not for some people, but when you’re 18 going on 19 trying to live a life in college and get a good education... it’s a two-person job.

If you’re wondering, everyday for the past couple weeks Nick has been apologizing everyday. I haven’t seen anything between him and Tori happen... except for fights. Everyday when I come home they’re fighting. We get complaints from people from all the noise from their fighting. It’s pretty nerve-wrecking for me. Well, everything is nerve-wrecking for me right now.

But, besides all this drama crap, life’s been good. I feel weird being a friend towards Nick, but I’m still thinking about taking him back. So, only time will consist of how long our friendship lasts with each other. Of course, Nick is pretty much my best friend. I mean, how can he not? He knows everything and anything about me. There’s nothing I haven’t told him. NOTHING. I would tell him things like, “I just found a pimple on my face!” to, “Man, that boy is so CUTE!” and he’d just go along with it. And same goes for him, too.

I felt nauseous and sick today so I just decided to stay home and watch all the seasons of House on DVD. At around noon, Nick came home for lunch. He walked into the kitchen and grabbed a bag of chips and a diet coke - the drink he lives for.
“Why are you home?” he asked while sitting beside me.
“I felt sick. Plus, I’m extremely exhausted,” I said, sounding exhausted! I haven’t had much sleep for the past week. Mostly because of the baby.
“Oh, well I hope you feel better,” he said while giving me a soft kiss on the top of my head. I smiled at him as he put an arm around my shoulders. “Why are you so exhausted?” he asked. I sighed.
“Loss of sleep mostly. The baby has been kicking a LOT lately, so it’s kept me up half the night,” I said. He placed a hand on my stomach and gently rubbed it.
“Thanks, Railey,” he said, out of nowhere. I looked up at him with a confused face.
“What do you mean?”
“I mean thank you. Thanks for everything, and especially thanks for this baby. Some girls get abortions just because their afraid of gaining weight and having to carry their babies around for nine months. I’m just happy you’re not like that, and I thank you for that,” he said. I smiled at him then looked down. I loved him so much, but I didn’t want to get hurt by him... again.
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I almost didn’t write this, only because I did not get a wink of sleep last night. NONE. So, I’m REALLY tired and REALLY sorry if that chapter sucked, but... hence the whole “tired” thing. Comments? :D

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[JonasFan95]

KEEP POSTING!

[fanfictwriter]

Well, I just posted the next chapter...

but it's been processing for, like, 20 minutes. : /

[TheRealKennaNicole]

this. did. not. suck. i looooved it.

[fungirl4343]

awesome chapter!

Nick is so sweet but I don't know a word to describe him!haha!

more please!:)

[francescalovesjb12]

really good:).

[iluvdogs1212]

moree!

[Mongoz08]

love is tragic

[nbabiggestfan12]

gooood chapter, once again.

i wish you could post again tonight, but you probably should get some sleep :)