crying my bloody eyes out! ED & depresion

just feeling so so so horrid. it's the worst it's been for ages. . . :-(

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[Snidders]

Sorry you're so upset, literally had a break down tonight too, so I know how rubbish you feel :( -hence trawling youtube. I think we both need a good sleep!

And i feel i have been very naive in not realising tears are salty! :L

xx

[lilmover]

@Snidders oh, im really sorry to hear your feeling crap too! *holds out hand* let's be in it together? let's see if we can squeeze ourselves a good dream sesh in?

many hugs xx

[covblazebabe21]

aww hun ((hugs)) if i had your number i would phone you! your a great person! your very successful (sorry about my spelling) let the pressure go babes just let it out you doing this vid might have helped a bit, dont admit defeat yet hun you aint lost yet! try relax remember how far you have come! without help if thats not an achevement i dunno what is! your a legend hun! and you got people on here that understand, the depression part is hard but you no you will get thu it! here for you hun xx

[lilmover]

@covblazebabe21 thanks so so so so much xx

[BoyMonarch]

You must give me the name of your interior decorator

[Heathhzz]

This made me cry :'( hope your okay lovely <3

[666alilthrowedoff666]

im thinking about murder suicide. i hate this fucking planet. i want to destroy the people who hurt me. i have no one to talk to. no one can deal with me. i have been to a million psyche wards, seen a million doctors, taken medications. there is no cure for hate. there is no fucking mercy.

[brindabellaoffroad]

sleep is truly so important Jaycee, our modern lives have messed with our sleep patterns and depression is becoming epidemic. try not to watch tv or use the internet after dark, you'll be bored to sleep by 9:30, the next day you'll feel great! Like everything it's about compromise, sure you love staying up late but is it worth the depression? maybe give it a try? I hope you are feeling better soon sweetheart.

[BattlecryXMoon]

Cheer up. The world needs to hear your incredible singing talent once again. :)

Singing can also be a form of healing. Don't give up tons of people believe in ya.

[AnaGirlEmpath]

@lilmover:

Oh, sweetheart. I am sorry you are so stressed and sad. Your ED Family is always here to support you! I am glad you made this video and shared from your heart. Your comments list alone is proof that many around the world are with you in spirit! *safe hugs* You are not alone! Please try to make sleep a critical priority. Sleep deprivation augments the negative impact of every stressor. Be well, precious one!

[iamoutherenow]

big hugs your way.... stay strong and remember the good times!!

[debb10]

had a total meltdown. With that said, you are a courageous, hard working, beautiful girl. I know you can do it!! Lean on any support you can right now. People will be happy to be there for you because you are a great girl and I trust that you are there for them when the need it. I'm giving you a hug right now. Sending positive vibes your way.

[debb10]

hey jaycee, I've watched you videos for ages and think you're just the sweetest thing. I wanted to tell you I did almost the same degree as you in Uni and in my last year I found my depression and e.d. to be the worst. I think the transition is frightening. You know, not knowing what you're going to do after. Leaving your friends and wanting to be over your e.d. by the end of uni. It's okay if you don't end up finishing this year...i had to take time off for e.d. treatment because i (cont'd)

[TheEmmyR]

I am sitting here watching this and wishing I could just reach out to give you a hug and let you lay on my shoulder and cry! We all go through rough patches, and I wish that there was something I could do. I also struggle with expressing myself, and I am always trying to do things so that others do not get hurt like you said. Sometimes it is good to cry, and I hope that this venting and crying was helpful to you! *virtual hugs* Good luck with your revision and exams! love you!