In These Words, I Fail.

WHAT DOES THIS VIDEO MEAN?:

My sister just had her first baby (a little girl) and my great grandmother just passed away on Sunday. On top of that I'm moving about 5 hours away from my family and friends to be closer to work (DirecTV and HBO Labs) and closer to people I can better relate to artistically speaking. The reason I keep saying "I failed" is because I couldn't find the words to explain the way I feel right now. I'm very happy / sad / lost / found / scared / ready / and patient. See... crazy huh! Being alive is such an intesting experience.

"In These Words, I Fail." by Cory Williams

The things around my life are changing. Faster and faster the shadows seem to cast in new directions, shedding light on all of the things that I've over looked in the past, and covering the things I've come to know well. As I sat and tried to explain the way that I felt this day, I failed. Only to find myself speaking from the outside to a world who couldn't possibly know what it's like within. The birth of a new love and the loss of an old combined with the change of doors from the place that I once called home. At times I envy those who have predetermined lives with the comfort in knowing what tomorrow will bring but as I close my eyes I can hear my heart pounding pulling my chest in and out as I breathe. I've sacrificed my predetermined life to live in the presents of lady luck herself, but also in the presents of judgement and sorrow who are no strangers to even my oldest memories. I live in this ever changing world because the world in which I change is predetermined. though the life I live isn't mine anymore. It serves as a hope for those who have lost their own judgement It serves as an aid to lift the spirits of those who need a little lift most importantly, it serves as proof that you don't have to live your life predetermined. I'm moving to a land of hope where many have not found luck but I believe that those searching for luck have no clue what luck even is. Luck is not a seven digit number written on a check. Luck is the journey we experience in the world that we choose to call life. You may not understand what this all means, but in time you will... through your own experiences.

In these words I fail.

I'd much rather have a banana than pretend to know how it tastes.

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Thank you Tony for all the great music! I'm going to miss you buddy... keep in touch : )

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[EndoNGB]

This video honestly left me speechless... You may just be the only person on YouTube with enough guts and self respect to pour his heart out in his videos. For this, you are my #1 on YT, and possibly the Web.

[MrCuteble]

thumbs up if youre watching this in 2011

[xXIIISaMIIIXx]

@MrCuteble im not, im watching it in 2031!

[hotlillylove45]

some one put finny on reaction

whoever did that reaction

tell me y u thought it was funny

cuz it wasnt no one thought it was funny but u

[hotlillylove45]

im am just saying this but you cat in the video was bitting u to death my cat use to do that but now he kills how can u live with the pain of that cat bitting u in hand feet toes how but, this video is so sad and now i dont know wat to do my life it being destroyed by people who want me to go a i ignore and ignore and now my life turnin into a slave for them but now u changed that thank you cory sry this is so long

[Epicvideos333]

146 people dont know what this video means, now i think of it...i think there dieing in a hole now....BEcuaseTHIS VIDEO OS FREKIN AWESOME!

thanks cory...

You changed my life and how i think of it.

sencerly,

Epicvideos333

[mandyl805]

Yay T.O.! My hometown

[MinachantheNeko]

You're a nut

[Wraithsss32]

This lifted my spirits...In so many ways...

[imlizardloco]

this video made me tear... i love your vids and i just wanna say "wear sunscreen" (if u dont know wut i mean look it up an youtube... it might change your life)

[SuperJacob58]

i cryed