8 Months HRT - Abby

Overcoming fears (straight people), dating, body acceptance, and evil step moms / dads

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• Transgender
• Transition
• MtF
• HRT
• Humility
• Identity
• Integrity

[Indifferent0]

No u still look like vanessa williams anyway. Im actually not sure who to talk to. Im not sure if i should tallk to a counselor, a personal doctor, an endocronologist, or a psychiatrist. Im so lost. Now im familiar with certain medications. Estradiol, Pervera, Spironoloctone, birth control but i would need to get permission from a doctor.

[johannaN271]

@Indifferent0 whatever you do, don't self-medicate. High estrogen levels can be very, very dangerous - like one minute you see the sun, the next second you smell oregano, the next second you don't know because you had a stroke. I've known personally 2 women in these 10 months have had stokes or blood clot issues. That all said, I think the best thing you can do is seek out the closest transgender support group and talk to them about recommendations on therapists, doctors, etc., etc., etc. 

[Indifferent0]

U kinda look like Vanessa Williams. :)

[johannaN271]

@Indifferent0 Thanks! She's a beautiful woman with great features....gorgeous on 2 hours of sleep right out of bed I bet......that IS SO not me, but I wish ;-)

[Indifferent0]

U have been on hormones 4 8 months?? U look like u been on hormones 4 3yrs. Very very pretty.

[johannaN271]

@Indifferent0 Thanks again! Some things have responded very quickly - face, breasts, things....other things much more slowly.....weird how genetics works. I know I've never been happier in my life even during the hard times....and inside, I know I'm doing the right thing for me, living my truth.....if even I only vaguely understand what the means at times.

[Indifferent0]

And i had visions of self medicating myself. Okay good thing i messaged u. Honey i cant afford to have a stroke. Im not 80 yet. lol

[johannaN271]

@FRANKHIP Thanks so much Dee. I love it when we connect via these videos. I've watched so many women and felt like that, like I was watching a sister in spirit. I still watch lots and still cry sometimes. I love to see the sadness in eyes before transition start to give way to a sparkle and a genuine smile after transition has begun. LOVE THAT!

[johannaN271]

@Falseharpist The danger with the straight world is that a small subset of that larger group are acting to conform based on fears rather than their own truths. Consequently, anyone who acts contrary too or challenges the standards of what it means to be straight becomes a threat, the response to which sometimes is violence. But, but, but, that really is a bit too like saying some dogs with black paws are mean, therefore I will avoid all dogs with black paws.

[johannaN271]

@markreilly52 I really do agree with you Mark. I do believe too, that if we bring fear and negativity into an otherwise neutral or even positive exchange, we have a good chance of creating self-fulfilling prophecies. That all goes back to our thread earlier. Are we acting consciously or reacting unconsciously based on our baggage.