" tHiNsPiRaTiOn " (New Art/Spoken Wordcore Piece)

Thinspiration: an IN YOUR FACE honest and logical artistic piece written from my authentic self and the part of me that truly wants to recover from anorexia nervosa.

How many times have I heard "I wish I was as thin as you"? How many times have I seen my photos and self portraits for art therapy purposes stole and used on PRO-ED websites? How many times have I been asked "What's your SECRET!? How do I get that THIN!?"

Too many times. Enough to stop listening to CRAP and start FIGHTING BACK.

I need to make it clear that in this video I talk aggresively about ending body hate but in contridiction I am vulgar about my body's current state ONLY to intensify the fact that being underweight and ill from EDs is NOT glitz and glamorous, it's not pretty, it's not perfection. I have suffered MANY health complications from EDS, as well as physiological disability and am thankful every day I live to see another in my current body. I am trying to learn to love it, even as it is now because as it is now it I have the desire to improve my health and restore myself. For those who don't know, I have been in a physical transitional period where weight gain is needed and crucial in my recovery. My body canabolized itself on an acute level a few years ago and I have been fighting to gain weight since, which I have done as to what is medically safe for ME. EveryBODY works differently and has different needs. Therefore, the way I talk in this piece is not to disrespect where my body is at. I am thankful that I am alive, breathing and operating to the best of my ability. I must also give gratitude for physical complications because I can help educate others from my experience.

I dedicate this piece to anyone who has ever suffered an eating disorder, body dsymorphic disorder, body image issues or insecurity around general appearance and even more so to those who are tired os this shit and want to start living... Recovery is how you will win.

Join me as I continously fight. Thank you for those who support my recovery.

Keyword tags have been used to assist in finding this video, pro-ed referrences do not mean I support the movement. It means I support those in the movement finding this video in hopes of HELPING them.

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[KRSchwicht]

i love this... love love love this. it's so touching. thank you so much. i've been struggling so much lately - i've gotten to a healthy weight and it's the hardest thing i've ever done in my life. i feel strengthened when i hear your words and then one look in the mirror seems to shatter my motivation. i would kill for your perseverance. i truly admire you.

[MyOwnStickFigure]

Wow you need to give yourself some credit. Getting to a healthy weight whether it means gaining or loosing to get there is VERY HARD and takes HARD WORK. I've been struggling with allowing weight gain to happen, it's motivating to hear someone say they are healthy. I bet you can do SO MUCH more now and that alone must feel great. Thank you for sharing hope with me.

[tallamb]

thank you.. so much for that.

it has opened my eyes a lot.

& one day soon, i'm gonna fuck this disease

& be fucking happy again.

your words touched me, god bless.

[MyOwnStickFigure]

I always say, every step forward is never a step back and every step back can be moved forward... Healing happens from within. Embrace whatever helps you fight this. I am trying the same, I don't always succeed but I never stop trying.

[pacowillrocko]

I love this video.

[bubblepopelectronic]

thank you. :)

you're amazing.

[sublimelmf]

Aw that was amazing!

I remember when I got to my lowest weight people would always ask how I "stayed in shape" (of course I was far from being in shape) or how I stayed so thin. If only people knew. And of course it was triggering to hear people say I was thin, just as much as if they said I was fat. Any weight related comment can be that way. Anyway, if only people knew what we go through to be "in such good shape." They don't think about the HORRIBLE side effects....including death

[MsNannyme]

u r bery but i need to shedd the pounds loved it keep it strong

[Littliz]

You are talented! Thanks for posting, love it

[SooperPoopProduction]

that was fun to 'bate to

[jsdgsa]

wow that was amazing

[silver18tiara]

That is beautiful. Thank you for reading that to us. It brought me to tears too : '-]