Bipolar & Social Anxiety Disorder

In addition to Bipolar Disorder, I have Social Anxiety Disorder. Here's a little bit about it and how it affects the Bipolar issue.

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Education

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• bipolar
• disorder
• manic
• depression
• depressive
• social
• anxiety

[SuperMe4lyfe]

I have bipolar disorder. I'm 15 and it really sucks. The lonliness. The isolation. The Depression. The pain. I feel as though I could kill myself at times to relieve my stress and just end it all. I've even thought about shooting up my school if I ever got access to a gun. And the therapy and Seroquel meds are annoying as hell. I don't feel anyone understands me or ever will

[PennyAnn25]

@SuperMe4lyfe I can understand feeling angry and frustrated and desiring to lash out onto others, but that would only cause others undo pain. Those children's parents wouldn't deserve the pain of losing children. And to desire lashing out on yourself isn't the answer either. When I attempted suicide at 15 I found myself in the ER begging for my life. I realized that I didn't really want to die, I just got sick of feeling miserable. It took time, really. Please reach out if you feel unsafe.

[SuperMe4lyfe]

@PennyAnn25 thanx for telling me that. i guess its just one step at a time like my psychiatrist said...

[PennyAnn25]

@SuperMe4lyfe Take care

[snowboarddude10]

I assure YOU, You're no different than any of us humans, actually u are! we aren't all the same, But, you're a normal human being, don't let your brain fuck with you. Stay positive =) and good luck

[PennyAnn25]

@snowboarddude10 Thank you for all of your input. You are right in that we all pretty much want the same basic things out of this one life we've been given - love life happiness freedom health friends/family etc

[PennyAnn25]

@snowboarddude10 Staying positive & confident is OK when my moon is normal or a little high, but when I am in a depressed episode NOTHING can bring about a sense of positvity or confidence. So I just wait it out.

[PennyAnn25]

@snowboarddude10 This is true. If someone is the type to talk about me behind my back then they aren't going to be somoene I would want in my circle of friends. I am a lot better about being me & not how I think others want me to be. I see my 'oddities' as fun quirks & unique personality traits. I lost that for awhile. I was a 'punk rocker' when younger then went mainstream to please others. I am now more like I was when I was punk & don't apologize for being different.

[PennyAnn25]

@snowboarddude10 I have had to overcome severe SAD several different times in my life. If I don't keep up with it, especially if I fall behind due to a depressive episodes, I have to start all over from the beginning. It can take months or years even & I have to keep up with it. I am working to overcome it once again. I am almost at the point that is my max. I'll always have a little anxiety in certain situations but not the time. This video is 5 months old, so I've done more since then.