Gowe - I Wonder (Official Music Video) Ft. Erin Kim - Mother's Day 2011

Ever since I discovered that I was adopted (at the age of 18), I've always wanted to write a song that captured my experience and gratitude toward my biological mother.

After performing this song for the first time at Kollaboration Seattle I was able to partner with key individuals to turn the song into a music video.

My hope is that this will one day reach my biological mother so that I could meet her. In a way, I feel like this is symbolically my 'message in a bottle' that I am casting into the ocean. Any help in sharing the video via Facebook/Twitter/Tumblr/Myspace with your friends & family would be tremendously appreciated.

Thank you to everyone who was involved in the making of this video and for everyone who has helped me share this. God is good and I am truly blessed!

- Gowe

http://www.facebook.com/TeamGowe
http://www.twitter.com/GoweHipHop

Download Here - http://www.mediafire.com/?77f5l70o797dgsv

Credits -
Artist - Gowe Feat. Erin Kim
Beat produced by - Nitro Fresh
Directed by - Moses Olson
Director of Photography & Post Production - Ed Park
Assistant DP - Dan Fisher
Post Audio - Derrick Espino
Song Engineered by - Travis-Atreo
Lead Talent - Esther Lee
Talent - John Wu, Narea Kang, Paulina Laurant, Henry Mark, Toyoko Kanari
Set Designer - Jennifer Asmundson
Make Up Artist - Janice Pak
Production Assistant - Michael Kang

Produced by - Royale Entertainment http://royaleent.com/
Special thanks to - Thach Real Estate Group, Kent Hill Grocery.

Lyrics -

Verse 1
Her mind was confused with a plus at the tip of the tube
Sick as she threw up with a cup take a sip of abuse
So she gets nervous cause her man left her
After the sex and he jets she thought that he loved her
You see shes 18, and shes a bit conscious
About her dress and the reflection of her own image
Timid in speech, shes limited given a week
With her tummy blowing up so that people can see
But she decides to keep it, said no to abortion
The feet kicks in her stomach comes without a warning
She feels the pain though, cause her parents cry
And the shame eats her alive when she closed her eyes
Then the day comes, she gives birth to a son
Kim Sung-Hoon, soon she holds and kisses her love
Wishing it never ended, taking a mental picture
Hoping through the tears that her son would have a better future


Chorus
I wonder if theres a smile on your face
Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace
I never could thank you, enough for holding on
Dear mama mama mama, forever, I'll hold you in my heart

Verse 2 -
So she wonders, what happened to her son next
Is there clothes on his back, food on his plate whats the context
The recollection of the day replays in her mindset
And the ways she would try but just never could forget
Well he's okay, and he resides in the states
A needle in space in which rain makes it a beautiful place
Embraced by the culture and he's loved by all the members
Until he turns 18 and his world get flipped
He hears that his mom is not actually his and that complications
Prevented her from having any kids and his real mom
Is actually Korean and she had, to give him up for adoption
Cause she was young and was a student
Lost and was confused and, wrestling in the moment
Am I Chinese or Korean? Am I destined in this union?
And if I am what's the purpose? I jot it in my verses
So I replay it in my mind as I think about you

Chorus
I wonder if theres a smile on your face
Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace
I never could thank you, enough for holding on
Dear mama mama mama, forever, I'll hold you in my heart

Verse 3

If I could write a letter, and know that you would read it
I would tell you that I never once in my heart felt hatred
Reinstated I would play a song and dance with you
Hold your hand as I thank the Lord for creating you
As strong as you are cause in my mind I can't fathom
The pain and the guilt when all you heard was their gossip
And still you stuck through it, when they called you foolish
And with this gift that I possess your probably loved music
I hope you're doing well, I hope some day you'll see this
I hope I mean I really hope that you know Jesus on a deeper level
Seeking just to know Him better, I hope in perfect timing we can
See the reason clearer, I hope you're smiling now
I hope I cross your mind, I hope you never second guess
If what you did was right, cause I'm so proud of you
I love and admire you, so after all these years this is my way of telling you

Chorus (x2)

I wonder if theres a smile on your face
Sometimes I miss you and long for your embrace
I never could thank you, enough for holding on
Dear mama mama mama, forever, I'll hold you in my heart

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[MrRivro]

Are the Youtube view counters down again? I'm pretty sure this song should have at least a few million views.

[GummyBearsTakeOver11]

I'm glad your mom didn't choose abortion :) your music is so touching and i love your rapping <3 legit ^^

[TonyTranLive]

That was deep lyrics man!! And the chorus was the cherry on top!! =]

[yoitsdereekk]

This brought my eyes to tears, damn.

[MikuHatsune1819]

How can you dislike this song!?!?!?!?!

[PyaraSaBandhan]

its so beautiful <3

[dream4i29]

I was so happy to meet him in 7th grade, he is so talented and I hope he meets his mother<3

[wonderlandinflames]

I love this song. Im a korean adoptee and never thought about my adoption this way until I heard this song. Thank you for this song!

[GoIndyColts88]

Bro...this is amazing! I cry every time I watch and listen to this. I'm an adopted Korean too, and your story really touched me. See, my life story is almost *exactly* the same with this song, and I just want to say thank you. God Bless, keep doing your thing for the Lord, man.

[omgitsjbr]

is there a way i can download only the instrumental part? thankyou

[SLBxINLOVExBLS]

This song gives me the goose bumps everytime I listen to it. Beautiful and so deep and meaningful; love it♥

[ALilAznBoy1]

I love you music so much man. This is by far my favorite song due to the meaning it holds. I'm also a korean adoptee love you music man.