Video Blog 20

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Hi! I'm Chelsea, I'm deaf, I will soon be 18. This is my: 20th video blog. Today is November 2nd, 2007.
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Hi! So. it's been a long 2 months of adjustment, to life out of my parents' house, new rules, new routine, new place..
been a little scary and I've cried a lot and grown a lot and learned a lot. A LOT. omg. The last seven weeks of being out of my parents house and being an intern (I fingerspell and clarify the sign for "intern here) have taught me a lot about being broken and submitting to God because before the internship I see the person I used to be and I see that I was someone who really liked control -- and I still really like control -- I have a control issue -- but one way that showed up was in my emotions.

I was really controlling with my emotions.
and through this program, I've seen God change me from being "oh nothing makes me cry, whatever, I'll cry only when I want to!" to weeping when someone else is hurting... and I have seen myself become so much more soft and tender and it is not about being "emotional" it is about being more like the heart of God. because he is softhearted.. and it is so cool to see myself changing but yet at the same time I dn't notice myself changing. the last 7 weeks have been full of battles, a lot has come up in my life that I've never thought about before.

my struggle with porn/lust/masturbation has really come to a breakthrough this week, this week has been like a conclusion of what I've been working toward in the last 7 weeks. I've had so many breakthroughs in so many things, it's not even funny.

I've had a big breakthrough with pride. I'm only starting to understand how prideful I used to be and I have really started to understand more of who God is and what He is like and it overwhelms me... I never knew that God could be this enjoyable.. that I could adore him so much.

IT IS AMAZING. and next week I'm starting another new season.. I'm turning 18.. and that is so exciting but so scary at the same time.I have no idea what I'm doing. :)

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[joelomat]

God Bless U

[mickeymoo26]

hey just wanted to say i didn't know deaf people could get interns, thats mega awsome!

[jello75146]

you are very sweet and beautiful, I hope you will have all the things in life that makes you happy and god can do that for you if you just trust in him. I don't know how to sign but i read in the description.

[ACDCdude95]

god bless

[nettinhof]

I am assuming that ... Most videos vlogs, I regret deaf, my name is valdomiro live here in brazil, to enter the paste something I know that to exchange ideas, communicate the Congress, if you want to enter the msn? Something will have here in brazil, but that day is November 29 ... After I show you the case.

Thanks

One kisses and a hug

Valdomiro

[supermandeaf30]

hi i am new i am 30 year i deaf man i not know what to said

deaf C i look at your story it is right because it not go easy of life it go be hard but no where you go God go with you anywhere because God alway with your heart, mind, and soul don't be fear God is very strong can care of you and trust God and i will pray for you all my heart all my soul i like friend with deaf just faith with God thank and God bless you

[OrmondRender]

yes! exellent right,,.so "control" is important where? self? or follow leader? but if you believe god that must leader self (control) and relationship/social/..

so this maybe not easy I wish meeting you if you have minister? anyway.. God (control) Bless you!

[gypsysoul08]

Happy belated Bday~ Chelsea, Don't give up on the Lord~ Love you~ :)