Forever and Always 49

Only one of you got it right.
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We had been sitting in the car for 10 minutes. 10 minutes of complete silence. I was shocked that he even came. I knew he didnt want to be here. I could tell. He was tense and it looked like he was holding back tears. His breathing was shallow and he kept gripping at the bottom of his shirt. The whole time he looked straight ahead not daring to turn to his right. I turned to my right and saw the sun slowly starting to go down. The warm orange and pinks of the sky made the cemetery look a bit eerie. Ive come and visited her couple of times so I already know where her grave is. I scanned it and saw that it was empty. No flowers. I turned to Joe to see his jaw was locked tight making his chiseled face more defined.

"Do you want to buy flowers first?"

Maybe going to get flowers will help him ease into this a little better. He turned to look at me and his tear filled eyes cut through me like a knife. He looked like a child. A baby almost. He nodded his head yes letting a small tear run down his cheek.

"Lets walk."

I offered knowing he was in no condition to drive. He leaned his head back and nodded while quickly wiping his face. I got out of the car and met him on the other side. The only other time I saw him this upset was when we were at the hospital. He broke down into heavy sobs. I didnt know what to do. I walked up to him and engulfed him into a hug. He held on to me as he let everything he had ever kept inside out. It broke my heart to see him like this.

"I-I cant do it." he cried.

"Yes you can." I whispered into his ear.

"No. no I cant." he whimpered shaking his head. I pulled back so I could see his tear stained face.

"Look at me." his big tears spilling down his face. "Joe please look at me." he looked up but wouldnt meet his eyes with mine. "Im here ok. You can do this."

His eyes met mine and his expression seemed to change a little. He nodded and I held out my hand. He took it with a strong grip. I took advantage of his newfound courage and took him slowly into the cemetery. The deeper we got in the tighter he held onto my hand. I could feel him hiccup trying to hold in sobs. I rubbed his hand with my thumb to show him I was going to help him through this. We got to her grave and I could feel him tense up.

"Cass lets go." he whispered.

"No. you need to do this. Its been too long." I said pulling my hand out of his grip and slowly leading him over to her. He stopped and stood there. He reached up with a shaky hand to wipe his face and coughed out a sob he was probably holding in since the car. "I'll be right over there ok." he nodded not taking his not taking his eyes off of her.

[Joes POV]
Just when I thought things couldnt get any worse I decided to come to the cemetery. I dont know why I thought this was going to be a good idea, because clearly, this isnt. For the past two years I have gone living my life as if she had never passed away. I made myself believe that if I ever came back home she would be there, with open arms, waiting for me. But standing here and looking down at her tombstone was a huge reality check. I looked back to make sure Cassie was still here. For some reason I dont think I can do this without her being here. Im surprised I even came this far. Usually I cant even pass by. I went on my knees and ran my fingers over the smooth marble of her stone.

"Everything is such a mess..." I whispered. "I dont know what to do anymore."

I felt a fresh batch of tears begin to form in my eyes. The lump in my throat was making it hard to talk and the heaviness in my heart was making it hard to breathe.

"I need you to tell me how to fix all of this."

I cried everything I had been holding in for the past two years. I didnt give my chance to mourn. It hurts. Bad. I felt Cassie wrap her arms around me again and dug her face into my shoulders.

"She wouldnt want you to cry." she whispered. And she was right. Suzette hated when I cried.

"I miss her." I choked out.

"I know."
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Ok so only iheartjonas23 was the only person who guessed right. Lol so give her a round of applause. *applause* a lot of you said either the diner or the pier where she painted the pic of him. So you gave me an idea. Haha so what did you guys think? I finally got internet over here! So I might be able to post more. But this will be a busy week. MY BRO GETS MARRIED ON THURSDAY! Wow! Yeah random day but thats how we do! Haha THANKS FOR READING!

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[wylmite4realJB]

so fantastic.

so sad.

thank you!

[jobrosluver1]

awh sad.. :[

poor joey!

more soon please!

[julymartiinez]

oh :/ i remember :P thanks for telling me n.n now i undestand :/ n.n

[BriBri205m]

i seriously just started crying. becaus ei have this overactive imagination so i pictured all of this in my head and i cried. Alot... god im usually not this emotional....... i hate it!! lol

[BriBri205m]

it was the lady that worked at the diner. basically his second mom. He love her alot... of cousre not a dog.lol...

[shaunamarie07]

great great great chapter!!!

[dancelivejonas522]

awesome chapter!!! really sad!! btw loved the video!!!

[mariaij18]

love it..congrats to your brother :]

[TheRealKennaNicole]

oh my gosh! i completely didn't think of that! i loved it but i feel so bad for joe and i love how theyre getting close again. this is why ur my favorite writer. you never cease to make things interesting!

[IxHeartxJonasx4ever]

Aww... that chapter was sad, but I loved it!

And congrats to you bro!