My Disorders and Me: Lost, Rock bottom & out of control.

I didn't expect to get emotional filming this blog but it just attacked me and I cant edit on this thing. I feel pretty much rock bottom. I have allowed the social anxiety to get the better of me, not having seen anyone for weeks, allowed the depression to get the better of me, neglecting myself, my appearance and my life and allowing the anxiety disorder to get the better of me by fueling my low self esteem and not pushing myself to make steps towards my future. I have zero confidence in myself now.
I feel out of control and completely lost.

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• Depression
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• Rock bottom

[iemobitch]

..im slowly going down to the direction you are in..

[BrunetteBarbie21]

@iemobitch Make a stand now before it gets any worse hun. xx

[Mutleytech]

I am here every day. All started when I was 33 and now still have it 7 years later. I think now I am just used to it you know.

[figsandolives]

you should write down on paper a to-do list, with things to make you more active, they don't have to be big... but it will help unclutter your mind... do something actionable (like the Nike ad... Just Do It)... hope this helps. xxx

[MissJulieJanee]

(cont) depression issues, I find myself in rare territory where I have no encouraging advice. I could say the cliche things like, "It'll be ok! Just smile! Keep going Erika!" But....does that really help? I don't think so. The best I can think to say is, go talk to someone. I know you were seeing someone before, but maybe you should keep going to therapy to help you work through these problems instead of just medicating them like they (the doctors) did in the past.

[MissJulieJanee]

I'm glad to see you're back. I've been wondering about you and where you've been, but I know you have these anxiety issues that you're dealing with so I kind of figured that your absence had something to do with that. I don't really know what to say to this video. I mean, I feel for you and I sympathize greatly and I want nothing more than for you to just be a happy, functional person. Because thats what you deserve. But, seeing as how I don't understand the aspects of your anxiety and

[LETmeLIVElifeANXIETY]

hopefully youre up and going soon, ive been feeling better but it comes with a price, ive gained 27 pounds since I got my medical marijuana card a month ago its really helped with my anxiety and im no longer taking xanax or zoloft, but like i said 27 pounds : ( hope you feel better...

[mszeineb]

Put your shoes on and go for a walk.

[LupusLife]

Glad to see you posting again. The fact that your talking about it shows me that you still have plenty of fight in you.

[WikidLovely]

I'd also suggest, if possible, you could move in with or move near close family members x If I didn't have my dad through it all I don't know where I would be now...my mother cut ties with me when I was a child because I wanted to live with my dad and I've never had a relationship with her, so my dad really was my rock xxx