picking up the pieces.-my world has been shaken to my core-And that's no exaggeration..

If you saw the tags and naming of this video you can see how out of sorts I am...I'll get through ...I always do one way or another....Wishing for the impossible??

If anyone is interested in what I have here are two links:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dermatomyositis

http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/ency/article/000839.htm


Just a moment of realness o f what my life is like now...
It's long and might sound like I am just a baby but I need to be honest if I am going to continue with this channel.
Changing directions with my channel in some aspects. Giving you all of me and not one facet of my life.

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• mind
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• sprite
• Dermatomyositis
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• jupiter

[JustLoseItNow]

Going to try and sleep....

Goodnight all ad thank you for being here even if I can't talk right now.... I'll come around ad thru...

I always do but maybe just this time I do't have a chip or a crack---I feel like I am crumbling....

into tiny little pieces....

Goodnight sweet dreams...........

Stacyxxxxxxxxxxx

[JustLoseItNow]

My phone has rang..I don't to talk....I can barely breath it feels like..I can't cry..Tears won't come. My emotions are stuck..At this very moment...I tried retail therapy today didn't fulfill anything as we all know it never does... Sleep won't come uless I take ambien and a Valium or two..

Me: Drops of Jupiter Fragile Kriptoynite

 Cello Music

All song references

[JustLoseItNow]

Part 1 again 1st one Got lost...

I don't need a home helper right now I am ok. I just ever realized how much she did for our home and me..What do they say ...You don't know what you have until it's gone....Thru actions of mine..I guess I needed to lear that lesson the hard way... The rock bottom hard way....

[JustLoseItNow]

part #3There is nothing I can do but wait and see what happens.Just a little broken hearted right now.Thru actions of my own I suppose..

I guess I learned the hard way.

[JustLoseItNow]

Part 2###.But it's killing me inside.? I am even writing this all out for you all to read is beyond me.Maybe there is a safe distance in sharing with most of you that have been a round.Not in the mood to talk on the phone or really even to pull myself together but I will. I hope soon.I have to give up hope and move on or make it work.I've tried both.Some people just hit your heart in a way that you think you can't recover.I just want to go far far away.I am sad in ever cell of my being.

[Julsinmaine101]

Stace~I wished I lived closer I would come over and help you:)I have followed your videos from way back and gotten to know you..What happened to Sabas?I thought she & em moved back in?did I miss a video or something..

Im happy your being honest with us youtubers cause thats what its all about as far as Im concerned getting to know the real you not somebody you pretend to be..Im sending a big HUG your way!Hang in there ok..email me anytime if you just need someone to chat with.

[JustLoseItNow]

I guess I never realized how much I depended on her until tonight it all hit me like a ton of bricks.....

I miss her more than I can fathom....

[17stOhNo]

where you at stacy?!!

[LMorgan1234]

Hey Stace,

I am so sorry . If I lived closer I would be at your place taking care of you. Caretaking is my gift & all I have is time. You R a strong lady--I know, easy for me to say.

[Drifter0038]

Hey There! I just happened to stumble upon your vids. I'm truly sorry to hear all that you're going through ... both personally & medically. I found a youtube member called 'lifegenerator' and honestly, I think you'd benefit from following him.  I believe he would be a great motivator for you as he has been these past few months for me. Check him out and DON'T GIVE UP!!!

[goodoldbrooklyngirl]

you can do it.

[Robotikz]

hey i just found your vids!! you are an inperation to many and not alone, dont give up!!! BE STRONG!!! :)

[244ME]

Did the bottles freeze?If so let's make tea.

[wanda543]

Stacy, I so wish I lived closer so I could come visit you and talk. I know things are really difficult right now, but trust that they will get better. Sometimes just talking to someone, or making a video, can help you let out the emotions you have been bottleing up inside. Hugs to you, wanda

[newbirth35]

Girl, you need more protein in your diet or you'll slow your metabolism by losing muscle. Get some protein in at every meal. Oatmeal is not enough. If you don't eat meat, try some dairy and/or eggs. I just worry about you reaching your goals in a healthy way. :) I have a protein shake, cheese, or hard boiled eggs for breakfast. :)

[merrimanjr]

I have mentioned b4 that I have dermatomyositis too, I know this disease can feel like it has taken over your life! But you know as well as I do, we have our good days and bad days. Don't let this disease run your life, try to stay positive as hard as that is, I KNOW< but you are beautiful focus on what makes you happy opposed to what you need to change. Change will come, things will improve! Hang in there! These things make us stronger! Is there a way your ins will pay for home help?