I've Had Enough, I Cracked.

I always had depression, since I was 14 years old. I was in therapy for a good year untill I decided I didn't need it anymore because I felt happy. The thing about this is that even though I thought I was good, it was never cleared up with my doctor or therapist. It sits there in my medical history.
Something Ive always been struggling with is weight issues, it wasnt untill 2 months ago that I liked my body. I have a butt, and no matter how big I got ppl still love me regardless. Unfortunately my depression took over and instead of quick and fast ways to hurt myself, I decided that skipping meals was a slow suicide. Its getting to the point where I feel light headed almost constant, shaking almost constant, Mood Swings (which cause me to get in fights), Feeling weak, and dehyderated. My self esteem went down in the process so now I feel like crap. And it sucks because I know whats causing it, but I'm too stupid to stop, that was untill I had a panic attack and took my frustruation out on my hair. Now I found help.

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[CUREZERO]

its sound like you have a lot of self image issues, the only way you can get past this is by accepting yourself the way you are, you are who you are and that makes you unique

[Chappis91]

@CUREZERO You know what, I never really gave that thought. Thanks for putting it out there. Gives me something to work on :)

[xXchickenlegs17xX]

your making me cry. your a beautiful person. and a lot of people go through this and your not the only one.

[Chappis91]

@xXchickenlegs17xX Thank you :')

[johee626]

I always have issues with my weight ever since I was 13...why? because my parents always told me I had to lose weight....not because I was self conscious...it was my parents bugging me 24.7...but I learned to accept my 140 weight lol listen..you can eat whatever you want...just work out...for a guy, its easier to lose it. your hair doesnt look bad at all. it will grow quick. don't think too much about it dude :)

[Chappis91]

@johee626 That was my problem, I was raised to believe I was crazy, and kept getting teased about a lot if stuff which is why my mentality focuses on one thing.

[BeautifulHyster1a]

im sorry your goin through this.... awww i feel like crying. =[ wish there was somthin we can all do.

[JakobLazarus]

I hope they were able to help. Many prayers your way.

[Cballer8022]

and now MORE people are going to call me ugly :( oh noooo

[Cballer8022]

somebody called me ugly ): im going to go take scissors and cut my hair...gay

[TheFrittyKitty]

oh my god, i am so sorry, you are very handsome and you  are strong for opening up, and any guy would be lucky to have you :-). goodluck, i hope you find happiness...

[000155636]

You be okay stay strong and fuck them people don't even let them bring you down and I'll beet that fag how fuck with you in gym is just a pussy and you where born this way

[thugz00]

wayyy too much insecurity please seek help

[321Horsepower]

We learn from our mistakes; I suggest that you get some professional help for you depression; I sincerely do. Love your videos and I hope you get better soon....(=

[spsbandgirl]

@TheDamienZone You shut the fuck up.