Chapter 46
[Shaeas POV]
The rest of breakfast was..awkward, to put it mildly. The grin on Denises face was embarrassing and Joes unbroken stare was nerve wreaking. Even Paul would once in a while put down the newspaper and smile at Nick and me. The times our hands would brush while getting something, everyone would gasp. Its like a time bomb, waiting to go off. I would have found this amusing if I werent part of the situation.
I went upstairs to change, considering the outcomes of today. Nick and I could A) Become really good friends again, and hope to forget the past week. B) Be civil and forcefully spend the rest of today just for Denises sake. Or C) Fight like cats and dogs, ready to bite of each others throats.
There was a knock at my door, revealing a slightly nervous Nick. It was obvious with his one hand clasped to the back of his neck and his face was drawn in confusion.
So, uh, we up for today? He asked uneasily. The thing that saddened me was the awkwardness between us. It was the uncertainty of what to say and worry of the other reactions.
Yea, I smiled at him, pushing all the worry off his face. He smiled that gorgeous smile, making my stomach to back flips, and turned to go to his room.
I turned to my walk in closet and began searching for clothes. I dug into the back and fished out a pair of my fitted shorts and a peach-ish pink t-Shirt which said, Were Looking To Find A Better Tomorrow. I stole Joes black RayBans, well, its not stealing if he sees you, tells you you cant have it, but doesnt actually do anything when you walk out with it. I slipped my feet into black sandals and added a dash of mascara to my lashes and a hint of gloss to my lips.
I smiled at my reflection in the mirror. Im not trying to sound egotistical, but I personally think I still look better than Johanna without too much make up. Oh hell, who am I kidding; that girl has busts you would think are airbrushed. Im not even sure shes actually 16
I walked into the hall, hoping to find Nick, but bumped into Joe. I tried to run but he pushed me back into my room and onto my bed in a swift movement.
Okay, explain, he said, jumping down on the bed next to me.
Uh, explain what? I asked, playing dumb.
You know he waited for me to continue. I was really hoping to avoid this conversation.
I know what? this seemed to annoy him. He groaned and threw his hands in the air, dropping them onto his face. He then ran his fingers through his hair and looked back at me.
You and Nick! How in the world were you guys to CIVIL today?
Oh, you know. We justwere, I said annoying him more. I really wasnt trying to; its just that I cant explain today to myself any better than I could to Joe. It just happened.
Okayand whats this about you guys HANGING out? He said, leaning into me as though its a big secret.
I just thought we could. You know, its been long and stuff I trailed off. I guess my reasons werent good enough for Joe. He sat there, staring at me, one eyebrow raised.
Shaea, if youre trying to be irritating, Ill tell you know, youre doing a damn good job at it, Joe said after we sat there giving each other death glares for five minutes.
Exasperatedly, I sighed and stood up, walking back and forth between the length of my bed, in front of Joe. "Joe I dont even know whats happening, okay? I just I just want to see where today lands. I dont know why my anger decided to subside today, I dont know why I asked him if he wanted to hang out, I dont know anything! Im so confused Im like on your level now! My life is a mess" I groaned dramatically and plopped back down on the bed beside Joe.
He was quite for a few seconds, contemplating or calculating what I just said. First of all, the whole my level comment was not welcome here. Second, I think youre doing this because youre afraid to lose Nick. A devious smile spread across his face as he agreed with his own thoughts.
What? I asked, genuinely confused. Lose Nick I, psh, wasnt scared to lose, NickPsh.. Great; now I disagree with my thoughts, too.
You are scared Nick will just give up and walk out. Youre not willing to lose him, are you Shaea? So youre willing to make amends, to create a truce. This kid knows me better than I know myself, and honestly, that scares me.
Joe; shut up. Youre annoying, I said, defeated. He was right, I was scared to lose Nick. Just hearing Joe RIGHT about ME, and I myself not knowing, was pretty annoying.
You know Im right, Joe said. I could just see him breaking out into a victory dance. But before he could, he was interrupted by a nervous cough from my door.
Uh, Shaea, are you ready to leave?
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Will Shaea ever be ready for more heartache? Hmm..
So I posted even though my gut told me not to. i think i'm rushing things, so I may not post tomorrow. I'll try when I can, please understand [: So what song do you guys think can fit with the overall CMC storyline? Lemme know cuz Im struggling... [:
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i love it :) and i think 7 Things kinda fits with the story....cuz nick is a jerk when hes around johanna and no matter what he does, shaea still loves him :)
angelicalyluvsblu 2 years ago
ohmyGod...haha I never thought of that [:
thats an awesome optionn
MakeItLovely 2 years ago