I miss you. [Personal One Shot.]

I miss sleeping around your house on the weekends.
I miss helping you watering your plants.
I miss the days we'd have watching Neighbours on TV, eating rich tea biscuits, drinking tea.
I miss watching you knit clothing for grandchildren, yet it looks like vintage art.
I miss the smile that spread across your face when I'd come visit, even though I'd just seen you yesterday.
I miss baking cakes, that would just go totally wrong.
I miss the memories we'd made together.
All together I miss everything about you, I never thought you'd be gone, yet you did.

Losing you, was hard, but I knew as soon as you went, you'd be watching, looking out for me.

I regret the way I couldn't say goodbye, maybe I could of changed that? I know you'd say "There's no point in dwelling on the past." Yet because it's about you, I do. Everyday I regret how I didn't wake up early that day, how I didn't take the invite in visiting you, knowing you was ill, how I was worried about being late for school. The thing is, being late for school didn't scare me as much as it scared me to hear you'd passed. Mom said it wasn't my fault, that I had to go school, but I know it broke your heart as much as it did mine not being able to have that one last hug, that last goodbye.

I never thought I'd lose you so soon, I didn't think you'd become that ill. Never did it cross my mind, but it happened, you went through all that pain. We made you happy whilst you was ill, we did everything we requested, we decorated your room for when you came home, it was so hard to keep a smile on my face when I saw you, because inside I was broken, just seeing you looking so ill, I didn't let that heartbreak crack upon my face, I smiled knowing you needed all the smiles you could get.

Then I got the news, I was in school, I cried, I kept crying, then I had to go home, knowing your house was just across the road, knowing I'd never be able to visit. I still have to put up with it now, but every time I look out of my window towards what will always be your house, I smile knowing all the memories were created inside those brick walls.

You believed in me, and I know you still do. You loved me in everyway possible, and I know you still do. You were always proud of me, and I know you still are. You was always there for me, and somewhere up there, you still are. I know you're watching me make mistakes, but you're helping me by letting me make them mistakes.

Each day, I'm reminded of good and bad memories we made together, but each memory is different than anyone else's, because it was us. I lost two of the most precious people in the world, yet I know they're still with me. Every tear, every smile, every laugh, would never go unmissed by them, and still won't, I know you're still with me, slowly picking up the pieces. I miss being around you, but I know you're still around me.

I love and miss you so much Gran and Grandad, you two made my life that little bit more perfect. I'll never forget you, but I can't promise I'll never shed any tears for you. Always in my heart, my head, you'll always be a part of me, knowing right now you'd be proud of me. I know you're safe where you are now, I know you're both together, happy, pain free, and that makes me happy.
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I shed some tears writing this, but i wanted to write it. i don't care if anyone comments, watches or reads it. it's my personal one shot, that i felt to upload, maybe people will understand my new story with www.youtube.com/strictlywritingx a little more when it kicks in. - thankyou. xx

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[loveme1x]

This is so sad :'(

I'm sorry to hear about your grandparents

this I think has got to be the most powerful one shot I have ever read in my life.

[BieberShawtyy]

this is really sad.

i'm sorry for your loss, :/

but they're in a better place now <3

[JustinBiebrFan]

Wow, amazing. I'm speechless. Your grandparents are smiling right now :D

[justinbieberfan0001]

This one shot is so sad...

I'm sorry what happened with your grandparents. :(

Though the inspiration came out of this one shot was perfect. :)

Remember your people is still apart of ya.. <3