Sorry it's been a while but I have been SO busy!
Here's chapter four:)
I stayed up the whole night thinking about how stupid I was for hanging up on Nick as he was apologizing. 'Really Ria? Why?' Was all I could get through my head. I had a headache and my eyes burned from all my tears. Usually when I am feeling this bad, I would call Parker, but wait, I couldn't do that! Or I would go watch some Jonas Brothers stuff, but wait, I couldn't do that either! There was absolutley no hope for me to feel any better. I kind of wanted to be with Parker. I put on Parker's sweater and snuck out my window. I threw a rock up at his window, he came by the window, I signaled him to go to the beach and he nodded his head. I cannot believe he was going to do this for me? It's 2 in the morning? I was sitting at the beach watching the tides it the big rocks when Parker came up behind and hugged me. He picked me up and twirled me around, "Are you crazy? It's 2 in the morning." He had a smile on his face, but he looked tired. We sat against a big rock. I was shivering and he put his arms around me.
Parker: "You want to tell me whats gotten into you?"
Me: "Ha, well, I was just having a bad night and I needed you."
Parker: "Well, I'm here for you no matter what."
Me: "I know."
We didn't say much. I just wanted to get away from the rest of the world and be with him, only him. I'm surprised he didn't ask me any questions. And I'm also surprised he decided to come along. I can't believe this. I didn't deserve someone as amazing as him. The moonlight really knows how to light up the night and so did the stars. Parker giggled a few times, for reasons I didn't know why. But everytime he did, I'd get this feeling in my stomach, and I lean closer to him. Evetually it was 3 in the morning and we headed home, he walked me all the way to my house.
I woke up perfectly fine, huge eye bags, but I was okay. I picked up my phone and texted Nick. I told him I wasn't mad at him, even though I was, and that we'll talk when he get back home. He told me he was sorry and that hes happy were friends. It felt like the weight of the world was lifted off my shoulders. Well, not really. Imac texted me asking if he wanted to walk to school together. Oh boy, I know he wanted to know what happened. But hes my best friend so why not tell him? While walking to school I told him the WHOLE story.
Imac: "So both guys like you?"
Me: "Yup."
Imac: "And you like both guys?"
Me: "Yeah, it's like, I wasn't mad at Nick for what he said, I was hurt but I don't know why?"
Imac: "Hormones?"
Me: "Shut up! But like, I didn't know if I was hurt because we weren't friends or hurt because he didn't like me anymore."
Imac: "I think you like him."
Me: "I think so too, but what do I do, I like Parker WAY more, but I can't let go of Nick?"
Imac: "I think you should do what makes you happier."
Me: "But what If I don't know what will?"
Imac: "Well, that's up to you Ria. You need to find this out yourself, no one can help you."
Me: "What if everything goes wrong and I loose both of them."
Imac: "I can't make promises with Nick, but I can assure you, you will never loose Parker, or me, or the group, we'll catch you if you fall."
I gave Imac a bear hug and ran over to Parker. I still wasn't gunna tell Parker all about Nick, but I wasn't gunna let Nick, or anything else ruin my homecoming. Planning homecoming was probably the best fun I've had all month. I mean, knowing me, you'd expect it to be the Jonas Brothers concert, despit the whole 'Nick' thing, but actually, being with my friends was much more fun. Was this what Imac meant? Which would make me happier? We took a break and I went outside the gym to the sideyard. I was thinking so hard about this. Damn it Imac. Staying home, where I've been my whole life, and being with Parker. Being able to know he'll be there no matter what, willing to run to my house at 3 in the morning, like he did before. Would that make me happier? Or would staying here with great friends but knowing my own boyfriend can't count on me? Leaving randomly for england or spain? Constant out of town or busy? Or never having a chance to call me? I knew that being with Nick wouldn't make me happier. And I knew that before, but why do I still like him? Could he be the one? Could Parker be the one? I just had a feeling that being with Nick, wouldn't nearly be as perfect as being with Parker, but something in me kept me wanting more of Nick.
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Part two: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0IrNm2V16LE
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thats a nice picture of joe
freakout1324 2 years ago