A letter to an ex (Poetry slam)

Dear ex,

See, I was going to write you a properly put poetical piece, but I decided that you weren't worthy.
Since you decided to drop an unexpected disrespecting call with the intentions of hurting,

I'll forget the grammatical guide lines and skip to the point. You're stupid and delusional.
You kissed my cheek with deaths intent and planned for this man's funeral.

But instead of hearing a eulogy, I'm leaving you dismissed
by reading for you actually, something that you missed.

That I gave you my all on call. You ring? I spring/ into action
just so I could meet your levels measuring satisfaction.

I remember you stayed in all day because your parents were abusive
and the truth is, I was the one to give your life a little bit movement.

So when we met three years ago I was a steady change in pace
cause before we were together you were grieving and dreaming of having a relationship with meaning and feeling.

That all he used to do was try to get through to you and do you without actually getting to you.
How you were helplessly molested by these men who would desperately undress and caress you.
But I was different.... you can ask you friends cause they are my wittness...

You met my family, my friends. I made you dinner... Remember that day we stayed in and I cooked for you. And we smashed after eating and I got a little taste of you. Lol just kidding not really.

I listened to your issues. My sleeves were your tissues.
But your word manipulation was just deceptive and missused

Wasn't it me who listened to all the shit you used to say?
Like, Nicole was a slut and cheats on kevin everyday.

Or whats her name is so obsessive over asian guys.
AND YOU HAVE THE AUDACITY TO ACTUALLY TRY TO TURN YOUR LIES INTO FACTUALITY.

Bitch you're nothing but a falicty.

Because you talked heavy doses of the most unbelievable potion that I call your lies.

But I loved you. I loved you because I thought you never spoke of me in spite.
I loved how I would whisper words and hear you sleep at night.

If people were against you, I would speak on your behalf/ but only if you wanted
Because I didn't want you hurt or drama to be started.

I loved you more thananything. This part is where rhyming stops...

I love you so much ,I let you cheat on me because you said you wanted space and this other guy made you happy.
My heart was crushed by the angel I called my own because you tore the wings I gave you and got high another way.

See, you said Steve was a dealer and gave you that free sticky icky. And you let him smash and rob you of respect and dignity. I took it. I took these emotional shots to my heart because I loved you than I loved me.

I would regret asking about your day because each syllable was just another round of bullets piercing my flesh and raping my heart.

I didn't stop... I was your side ride, right? You made him and you official.
But how official were you and him when you called me every night and said I love you... just wait for me, laurence.

So I did. We smashed and banged and I bought you everything you wanted
Those BLUE AND YELLOW CONVERSES? I BOUGHT 'EM. THAT NECKLACE, I BOUGHT IT. YOUR LINKIN PARK CD'S AND SHIRTS? I BOUGHT 'EM. 25 PERCENT OF YOUR VIDEO GAMES? I BOUGHT 'EM. ALL OUT OF MY BIRTHDAY AND CHRISTMAS MONEY

how you were misleading and deceiving your friends saying that I was abusive
when it was me who felt like I was meaningless and useless.

I can see some of the people from your school in the crowd and bet you left 'em hypnotized.
Saying I was the one who hurt you and left you feeling misty eyed.

SO IF YOU EVEN DARE TO CALL AND LEAVE ME DISRESPECTED
I'LL HONESTLY JUST TURN IT ALL AND LEAVE IT REDIRECTED

I FOUGHT YOUR BATTLES LONG ENOUGH. I DID IT ON YOUR OWN
I FOUGHT YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY AND EVEN WRESTLED WITH MY OWN

I LOST PEOPLE JUST TO BE WITH YOU SO IF YOU FEEL OFFENDED
JUST KNOW THAT IT WAS ME WHO KEPT YOU HAPPY AND DEFENDED.

THIS IS MY REDEMPTION. SO LISTEN TO MY BANTER.
CHEATING AND ABUSE DON'T CONSIDER SEX A FACTOR.

GUYS CAN BE HURT... I'm living proof.
She left my heart scarred and my consciousness confused.

To my ex, I'm done. Stop calling... there nothing left to say

love, the bestest thing you ever know and ever thrown away

PS. you bed smells like that one thing you said I was better than him at.

Category:

Music

Tags:

• Slam
• poetry
• Poetry Slam
• Ex (text Editor)
• Poem
• Spoken
• Words
• TV Asahi

[thegyles0225]

Hey can I get the authors name to give credit. Thank you.

[FilipinoxBandito]

@thegyles0225 Laurence Paul Nacario Carian is the name :D

[DyVrSitYProductions]

this still gives me chills. good ass job dude, straight from the job.

[IAmProZombie]

Bravo!