Selective Mutism

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This probably will be my last video, this sums up everything I've said in my previous videos. Its probably my last only because I've simply ran out of things to say. I would basically be repeating myself If I made more of these so I might as well make it look good.
In the video I tried to make it look like everything was shot in the first person first person perspective so your in my shoes for a day, you get to go where I go and feel what I feel.
This video was kinda hard to make, I had to revisit all the places I've ditched in high school from 5 or 6 years ago during my jounior/seinor year. It got so bad to the point where I was at risk of dropping out, I missed out over a month of school at the time.
The best description I can give this video is me being alone and being by myself for a day, its me avoiding something so I wont have to put up with the pain of something, its the pain of fear. Its me choosing to be oblivious but knowing everything around me is messed up, It was my way of escaping from everything. Thats the best way I can describe my experience going through selective mutism and depression.
Lastly, I am over all happy with everything in my life right now but the anxiety is still there, I know that wont change. I have good and bad days but I haven't let it control my life. Everything got better ever since I forced my back into college, sometimes the only person that can help you is yourself. Coming from me I know its very easy to say something like but its true. You can't sit around and mope like I did. Sometimes the only person that can help you is you. With a few bumps in the road I learned a lot about what I'm capable of accomplishing in the last 2 years. Hope this little thing I made can make a difference in someones life, its possible to be happy, you can be happy.

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[lesliegg1961]

I don't know what selective mutism is but Ive been told I am a recluse. When I go out I like to listen to books on my ipod. It makes me feel less self conscious about being around people because I can concentrate on the book. I am sorry to hear about your dad dying. I really like your video. You have quite a good talent there. Not me, mine are always so horrible that I can't put them on you-tube. I am so silly but I think the "haters" on you-tube would crush me in minutes. Keep up the good work!

[urnotok]

@lesliegg1961 Its alright if you don't know what SM is and thanks very much for your comment. I like to listen to my ipod too when I would go out, it helps me think about other things so my anxiety wouldn't be as bad when I would be on my way to school or where ever.

[AutisticWhoLives4God]

I like the pieces of video. You picked some intriguing footage. This video is poetic and very well done.

[urnotok]

@AutisticWhoLives4God hey thanks, the footage was just me revisiting everything from all the places I went from back then. I knew one day I had to make something like this so I could make steps to move on from my past.

[ChristieCatastrophe]

Wow this is a really good video.

And I can completely relate to everything you said.

[urnotok]

@ChristieCatastrophe thanks

[SelectiveMuteNoMore]

Very nicely done

[jeffbridgman]

Well done, like the style :)

[TakenbyTolstoy]

One of the best videos I've ever seen.

[ohcrapmonkeyss]

Great video. I know exactly how you feel. Everything you said I can relate to 100%.

[AutisticWhoLives4God]

@urnotok You're welcome. It's a masterpiece.

[MissStrawberryLady]

I like this video. I have SM, too. I can understand your thoughts and feelings. Life with SM wasn't easy. But you must fight : ) i know it's very hard. But you must try ... Nice greets from germany.

[DesertSmeagle]

cool video..i just wish that science would recognize the teenagers that have this. im goin into college in 3 days, im so worried that this is gonna destroy my college experience.