The Life I Stopped Living [ the noise]

[The noise]
Ps. Aurora is played by MemphisGal94

I sat there with no emotion on my face as I was yelled at by Paul. I really didn't care what he had to say, but for some reason what he said was really hitting me. I promised myself that I wasn't going to let him hurt me ever again physically or mentally, but here I am taking it like I did when I was younger. I don't have a memory of my dad ever being nice. He was always so tough. Not gentle and over protective. He was hard, gone all the time, didn't care what happened to me.

Paul: you're a worthless piece of crap. You never do anything right. You deserved what you got all these years. You disrespect everyone, don't do as you're told. You ruined this FAMILY! If you had just been a boy, everything would have been fine! We'd be a happy family, but no! You had to be a girl. You're the biggest mistake I've EVER made!

He kept ranting and going on about how I was a mistake. Hearing these words just pushed me over the edge. I felt myself crying. I kept my eyes hidden from him. I felt his hand grab my chin and make me look up. I just wanted him to stop yelling at me and tell me I was pretty and not ugly. I didn't want to be called a mistake.

Paul: you are dead to me from this point on. I don't EVER want to hear your voice again! I don't want to hear about how you're getting in trouble. From this point on your not my daughter, you're an orphan to this family.

He pulled his hand away and slapped me across the face. I was still crying, but silently though. I heard yelling from outside and saw my brothers come in. They looked liked they seen a ghost. I put my face down. Dad was yelling at Kevin for letting me get this way and that I needed to be punished more. I just wanted it all to stop. The yelling, the abuse, just everything! It was a blur from there on. I watched as mom yelled at nick and Joe for doing this, and dad yell at Kevin and them all yell back. I didn't know if they were standing up for me, or telling them they would punish me more. At that moment I seriously didn't care. I stood up from the couch and walked to the back of the bus and changed in one of Kevin's big t-shirts. I didn't want to hear what they were saying. I grabbed a pillow and blanket from Kevin's bunk and walked back into the lounge. I shut the door and laid down. I tried blocking out the noise the best I could, and somewhere I eventually feel asleep to a simple song in my head.


I swear sometimes I can't tell which way is up, which way is down, it's all up in my face. I need to push it away somebody push it away, so all that I can hear. Is a simple song.

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[krenke015]

her a mistake?

how bout a her dad who is a piece of shit!

he's the mistake!

i dislike with a fire-burning passion right now!

loved it, please post more soon!(:

[Zanessafan08]

@krenke015 lmao. you comment made my day:) i was having a very bad day but you just totally just made it better. so thank you:) and i love making him the bad guy in the story. its something really different i think.

[xxMusicIsMyLife1xx]

@Zanessafan08 I totally agree! And thanks, that would be great!

[Zanessafan08]

@xxMusicIsMyLife1xx thats cool. and i'll check it out then:) there are sometimes i wish i could just quit writing but i cant:) haha. its deff a hard job.

[xxMusicIsMyLife1xx]

@Zanessafan08 Yea I still write at home and stuff but not on youtube :)

I sing now!

Lol! In a couple days i will have a video up on youtube!

[xxMusicIsMyLife1xx]

@Zanessafan08 Yea I still write at home and stuff but not on youtube :)

I sing now!

Lol! In a couple days i will have a video up on youtube!

[Zanessafan08]

@xxMusicIsMyLife1xx thts cool. do you still write?

[xxMusicIsMyLife1xx]

@Zanessafan08 Mine was a sister story, like yours :)

[krenke015]

@Zanessafan08 lol, your welcome!(:

[Zanessafan08]

@xxMusicIsMyLife1xx hah thanks.i'll think about it. and you did? what were your stories? a love story or sister?