Just Leave....and take my broken heart with you

Here...here it is. My broken...and bleeding heart...for all to see. I have never been more open....or more vulnerable. What do you do....when a person you love...leaves.......without saying goodbye? What's worse....is it's not a parent...or a lover...but my best friend of seven years. She couldn't.....have told me anything? Does she care for me so little? Not being able to hug her...or wish her good luck....or say goodbye...

That's the worst.

When something happens....that shocks me to the core....I can't help but create something. I feel a need, a desire to distract myself in the most painful way possible. Perhaps..perhaps it helps to paint my heart in such a vivid way. The last time, when I thought my world was tearing apart, I wrote a short story. This time....a music video. I cried almost the whole time I made it.

Yuri (from Red River) represents me. Her emotions reflect what my heart is feeling. All the pictures are my memories....black and white...centered on me and her....like it was for so many years....until she just doesn't want me in her life anymore....

I get it....If I could cut out the piece of my heart that belongs to her, I would. Maybe she intended a clean cut, but this isn't clean...no, this is a jagged edge that cuts deeper than intended.

I truly hope she's happy. Because if she puts me through this, and then doesn't make it...all this pain will be for nothing...and we will gain nothing...

So goodbye to the memories....if I could say goodbye....goodbye to the smiles, the laughs, the insanity, the tears...how I wish they would just leave....

Song: Leave
Artist: From the soundtrack of "Once"
Manga: Red River (Anatolia Story)

Except for the pictures, I don't own anything.

Category:

Film & Animation

Tags:

• Leave
• Once
• Soundtrack
• Red
• River
• Anatolia
• Story
• Broken
• Heart

[EndOfLight7]

omgg i'm soo sorry! I feel your pain

[Sessylove93]

It's alright, things have happened over the past year that have helped me through it. I'm not sure I'll ever truly get over it, but I'm doing better.

[sango2chan]

i 'm really sorry about that...it must have been hard..

[Sessylove93]

Thanks, I appreciate it. I'm still a little messed up, but I can get through it. <3

[theRandomRobbieCAFE]

I've feel your pain. I went through something just like you. though I might not know what happened, I've learned people come and go. sometimes you can't always trust people and it hurts sadly its the truth. We are only human. And we want what we want. I don't blame you one bit. And God doesn't put us through things we can't handle. When God closes one door he promises to always open another. you may not see the light at the end of the tunnel, but it's there and its burning bright for you. :)