December 17, 2006

This is just part of a day, that's part of a week, that's part of a month, that's part of a year-- there are (will be) far more better times in my life than this hour of this day. There are just certain points in your life where you feel completely hopeless and helpless...this hour was one of those times.

Updated August 11, 2010

After deleting most of my other vlogs for some reason I keep the two emotionally upsetting around. I believe I keep these videos to remind myself how incredibly unhappy I was during this time in my life. 4 years later and I'd argue I'm the happiest and healthiest I've ever been. I learned how to REALLY fight for what I want when it comes to Aidan and my efforts have been rewarded immensely. I took a real long look at myself and said "Have you really done EVERYTHING" you say you could've done? Have you even done half?"

I hope those that can relate to this video for whatever reason know you DO HAVE THE STRENGTH to pull through these times and find light at the end of the tunnel. I won't sugarcoat it, it's difficult and how long that takes..no one knows. It took me 5 years but now that I'm here, I WILL NEVER GO BACK.

Originally I disabled comments from viewers but am opening them up now. I do not check my YouTube often so if you message me or comment reguarding this video or any of my others, please know you will hear from me eventually but it may be months from now.

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