Pole Junkies Challenge: I Celebrate Others..I Celebrate Life, I Celebrate Me!

*HIGH QUALITY MAKES A BIG DIFFERENCE TODAY, DONT BUY THESE SHOES IF YOU WANNA DANCE WELL, LOL* im behind on pole junkies challenges. i have pt one and two bein uploaded now, cuz there are two challenges there, but also not just that but the first ran into the second, cuz of the 10 minute +..u can get away with some seconds over but wasnt enough so if you listen to the second 1st the song will be cut cause i had no choice, as it is i always am forced to cut out a bunch of stuff cause i just dont time it right, its not that im fudgin up and postin clips on purpose, i just usually dont stop practicing when the youtube 10 minute is up, i hate uploadin two parts but since there are two challenges involved..what the hell....lol. the first is things we celebrate...sorry i wrote inspirational songs and people, cause to me, thats what i sort of did with my song choices, cause they are what i celebrate everyday, and myself..will explain. ive been thru alot of turmoil in my life. ive loved and lost more times then i can count, ive been a victim of violent crime multiple times, long term abuse, and other stuff, too personal to mention, but you all are like family so i feel i can reveal some of my feelings at this moment and these songs, i think they speak volumes by themselves...in these songs i celebrated the lives of those ive lost who made me smile, gave me hope when noone else did and i mean NOONE...and to celebrate the person who was also saved because of her own inner strength she never knew she had....ME! i celebrate me, and those who made an impact on my life. those who saved my life knowingly or unknowingly, and are no longer here to thank. the few and far between people who made my life worth living, and showed me i was capable of survival, even if they never even had a clue. people ive felt bitter at God for taking, and wondered how one person could be soo unlucky, but im luckier then i think, just having the opportunity to have even known them. i wouldn't have made it thru my childhood without one of them, she's gone but in my heart, another taken too young, the only guy who made me feel safe if only for awhile, love in my heart to this day..dont worry hubby knows, its not like that, lol...(1st true love u know how that goes ladies), a child i had where i lost it all for so long, but gained a best friend, and someone who saved me enabling me to type this right now..my only incentive cause i just could not save myself....and me for standing, walking, talking, breathing, and loving, after soo many years of heartache and multiple sorrows, there is a light if you can fight hard enough to stick this screwed up world out, and sail thru the storms, cause i NEVER pictured any future for myself, and acted that way, believed it, and now i'm living it....trust me, soo much more then i mentioned here, so just know, if i can, anyone can, and so for my pole junkies challenge i celebrate life, freedom from abuse, pain and sorrow, and i celebrate the short but meaningful lives of so many people i hold close to my heart. with me every second, of every day, of every year! sorry i have nothing real trivial to celebrate .....like a new necklace or something tangible, in my life these other things mean so much more, and yeah i had a good internal cry doing this one, cause memories can hurt even the ones that once brought us joy, and the painful ones can leave scars that never fully heal, but some we just have to fight to release...i've always through writing, and music, been able to vent my inner feelings, without the bawling most people are accostumed to..it's my source of therapy, i can't cry as much as i wish i could, my avenues are as stated above and now through pole dance, thank God for that, i know he lead me to it! so im sorry to ramble...just explaining what my challenge is all about, and broken wing is the story of my personal survival, the first song..let's just say makes me well up in a heartbeat...almost can't stand it, but at the same time, cant stop playing it since i heard it, i just chose songs that touched my heart, still touch my heart, make me believe again, celebrate my freedom from abuse, grief and a life of constant torment, and the ones that without, i'd certainly not be here today...i miss and love you! pt two i continue with inspirational songs 'celebrate' while doing my next challenge. my blindfolded PJ challenge will be in there.....sorry couldnt fit everything here. got new hot pink platforms but dang it, they seem to hit the camera and turn it red lookin...idk will try again, get a new camera...hopefully by x-mas if not b4, but they have dang treds, big time on the bottoms, so sadly they look great but are HORRIBLE for dancing in on a rug for sure:( they stick at every movement, but i carried on anyhow, just dealin with it, but for that reason only i wont recommend them. thats the only drawback from online buying. ok good nite b4 i put you all to sleep lol...rock on pole divas!

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