Life.1

Sorry I'm not good with titles o.o
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Also, I'm gonna be mean and say I won't put up a new one unless I get five comments. HA. (:
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I turn my head away from the biology homework I'm working on to grab my vibrating phone that's sitting on the floor between me and my laptop, thinking it is just a text reply from my friend Luke, as I've been texting him for the past five hours. However, as I glance at my phone, it vibrates again and I realize it's a phone call, not a text, from the guy I like, and one of my long-time closest friends, Ian. I automatically roll my eyes.
"What?" I say once I answer the call.
"Dude, I know I'm drunk out of my mind but you have to stop being so bitchy to Nate," he tells me. He's so drunk I can barely understand what he's saying.
"Ian, I can't understand..." I start to tell him, but he cuts off my annoyed tone with his drunk one.
"We just had a super deep convo and you have no..." he cuts off, probably too drunk to remember what he was trying to say.
"When am I a bitch to Nate?" I ask in a quiet, but very impatient voice. I hate when people drink, especially Ian.
"You have no idea how much shit he's been through," he responds, ignoring my question. "I don't care what you do but don't fucking judge us for this."
I roll my eyes as he pauses again and think of hanging up. Just as I'm about to, he continues on.
"Okay, just text me 'cause I'm really fucking cold."
I'm confused as to why he's cold and wonder if he's locked out of his house, or worse, got kicked out, and glance out my window for a second out of habit before mentally smacking myself for even caring. I stand up from where I was sitting on the floor and walk back and forth across my room. "I really don't feel like talking to you right now," I say to him.
"Whatever, bye," I hear before hanging up my new black phone.
I quickly go to my inbox and send a text to Luke. "He just called me." We had been talking about how he was with Nate and another friend drinking tonight.
Then, I send a text to Ian, even though I said I didn't want to talk to him. "What'd you say on the phone? I couldn't understand any of it."
"Fuck it, whatever," he texts back.
"What's your problem?"
It takes a bit for him to reply again. When he finally does, I read it right away.
"U judge me and Nate cuz we get drunk n shit. U dont even know us! Our lives suck! Dont ever judge us for drinkin its our lives well fuck em up if we want!"
I don't even know what to say to that, so I forward the message to Luke and start crying. After a minute or two, I send a simple text back.
"There's a big difference between judging you and caring about you."
"Not to me. No one cares and I like it that way."
I know that that's true, too. He's never thought anyone cares about him, and never wanted them to. That's what happens to people with fucked up lives. All they know is people who don't care, and when they finally meet someone who does, their scared. I know because I'm the same way. Not that I'd ever admit that to anyone.
I've tried millions of times to convince him that he's amazing and show him how much I care. But there's no use. So, all I can get myself to say to him is, "Okay."
After that, he doesn't reply again, and I know that from this moment on, things will be different. And, boy, am I scared for that.

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[xopeaceandloveexo]

windsey is a good writerrrr. <3

[smileLoveex]

@xopeaceandloveexo thanks (: but it's really just something that happened to me a few days ago, and then I wrote it down and then yeah xD

[PinkPrincess102]

yes, lindsey...I DID ENJOY THIS :)

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writing together! :D