Uploaded on Jan 26, 2012
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My Life With Extreme Anxiety Disorder:
I didn't post this for anyone to feel sorry for me. I simply posted this video in hopes to let at least one person know their not alone. If I live my whole life like I am now, and help one person.....it's worth it to me. Thanks for watching, and God bless you.
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hey everyone :)
im Zack G.
I'm 19 yrs old and have extreme anxiety disorder
heres my story...
All my life I've lived feeling like I was lost
I always felt different from everyone else
I lived with my mommom and papaw most of my life
my mom didn't make enough money to raise me
When I was born, my dad left my mom at the hospital
I never saw my dad because of his mental health
I grew up thinking my papaw was my dad
I thought he was the best person in the world.
When I Was 8 yrs old I Started having episodes of crying and feeling like I was lost
My mommom took me to a psychiatrist.
I worried about everything, I always thought I was dying or going to die.
I was very nervous going to a doctor.
I thought they would tell me I had something wrong with me.
or tell me I was going to die.
The doctor told me I have extreme anxiety disorder, A.D.D and, O.C.D
He put me on medicine to try and make me feel better.
After a couple of weeks I felt worse.
I didn't feel myself.
It was very scary for me, I was having bad panic attacks often.
I would have to lay down for hours to feel a little bit better.
Alls I could think was, "I am dying".
My papaw came to me one day and said. "you dont need medication, you're fine!"
I believed him, so i stoped taking the medicine.
When I was 10 yrs old my papaw found out he was sick.
over the course of 2 years he died twice, and they brought him back to life.
He finally found out he had pancreatic cancer.
When I was 12 my papaw died, after two years of being sick.
he couldnt hold any food or fluids down
starvation killed him before the cancer.
After a couple months in the 6th grade I got homeschooled.
I was in the nurses office everyday having panic attacks.
I didn't do good in homeschool because I could never focus on the work.
I got very depressed and tryed to hang myself.
I saw my life flash before my eyes, then I sliped out of the rope.
I told my sister what happened, and she told my mommom.
She took me to shephard pratt, I was there for 2 days then went home.
After 7th and 8th grade being home schooled I went back to public school for the 9th grade
I tryed to make people laugh and I got in trouble a lot.
The only way to deal with my anxiety was to laugh and try to keep my mind off of it.
after the 10th grade in Highschool, I dropped out. I couldnt focus on shoolwork because of A.D.D
and major panic attacks.
my mommom took me to another doctor.
He told me I had extreme anxiety disorder, A.D.D, and was
border line schizophrenic.
He put me on lexapro, valium, risperdone, and adderall.
I got my G.E.D at age 16 and looked for a job.
I got hired as a cashier and worked for 4 months.
I was doing much better, but I felt like everyone wanted to hurt me
so I started having panic attacks again.
so bad sometimes, I couldnt ride in cars, go to the store.
or even be outside.
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