:( I'm a stupid dumbass

I did something bad guys...really bad.

Well first off, it started when was hanging out with my friend, Jered, and Jake seen me kiss him on the cheek. He thought it meant something...he broke up with me. I would never cheat on Jake, ever, Jered has been my best friend since preschool..thats all we are..is friends. I have never liked Jered in that kind of way. And Jake told me it was over. I did something really bad, I cut. I hate myself for it, I'm so ashamed. I miss Jake so much, I miss how he would hold me at night when no one was home. I have texted him and tried to call him so many times, but he never answered me back. I'm so fucking stupid. I hate myself. I hate my life. I'm going to fight for Jake, I can't give him up. I can't believe how badly I screwed up. Now I've got these marks on my arms and I don't know what to fucking do. Fuck everything, Fuck my life, I'm such a fucking idiot. I miss him, and I bet he hates me now.
Why am I so fucking stupid?

Please Don't lecture me I know cutting is bad. And I'm a fucking dumb ass for doing it.

I'm sorry guys..
~Vanessa

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[TheMIZZMAYAXO]

just give him time he will come around and i he doesnt there are many other guys out there sand he is just mad give him time and whenever u need to talk im always here.

[coltsblackgirl]

Holy Cow girl!! don't be cutting yourself, look you will see other guys better then Jake, and who knows maybe he'll come back he cools down for a while. and I'm really sorry for what happen between the two of you. And well he's needs to read this blog you put up, and maybe he'll turn around, And don't hurt yourself because of this. please don't it's not fun when your doing this. I want Vanessa back!!!!!! you will be fine, I'm sure of it.

[AnaArruti]

Ohh, I'm so sorry. Look, why don't you give Jake a little time? I bet he'll be able to undestand once he calms down. And you know, I think it's great you're not giving up on him, we can see you love eachother very much.

And don't blame yourself, you're great and you weren't doing nothing wrong.

[MrJonasroxmysox]

Yea sleep is for pussies..like Jake...

I hate that I love him :(

[JonasFanFicLova1]

Me too, sleepings for pussys. I bet Jake sleeps. I bet he, he, he, eats kittens! Ok, that was a little demented, never mind.

[MrJonasroxmysox]

I am still on lol..I don't want to sleep. :(  Fuck you Jake, Go suck a dick.

You think I'm nice? Whoa..thats a shock.Ha!

[JonasFanFicLova1]

OH! And not once, through out this whole conversation, have I said "THANK YOU!! FOR BEING SO NICE!!" so, thank you! haha

[JonasFanFicLova1]

Tehe :) Love you! Though your probably not still on... oh well, haha

[MrJonasroxmysox]

Aww :) Thank you so much! Words can't even explain how awesome of a friend you are.

[JonasFanFicLova1]

Tsh, I know. Ahem, I mean, no YOU ARE! Heh... haha no, you really are awesome, and your welcome :) I'm always here for a friend.