Why Did I let myself Go?

Everybody has a skeleton in the closet... My whole Life I stuffed my face with food, hoping it would fill the void, and of course it never did so i'd stuff my face some more. I wasn't fat just because. I was obese because something traumatic happened to me when I was very young and it's what changed me.

Being Obese was like having a heavy (mental) burden to carry... Watching biggest loser finally made me want to come clean about why I'm obese.... And this is why i defend weight loss surgery so much.. because it changed my life, it lifted that horrible past from me and made me so much healthier and so much happier.. have you seen Shay on the biggest loser? remember when she was working out with bob? and he asked her, "what do you want out of this?" and she was balling her eyes out saying, "I just want to be happy" that struck a nerve with me, and i was right there with her crying. Because isnt' that what any of us want to be? is happy? when your overweight, ridiculed for being big, your unhealthy, and everything hurts physically mentally, nothing fits..... how can you be happy? I will defend Weight Loss Surgery all the way to my grave because it helped me get my life back and experience true happiness... Thanks for listening again sorry for the tears and the rambling...

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[Genisis0101]

You don't know what a hard life is, you had everything and anything handed to you, you have no friends because you are to much of a stuck up bitch.

[melitriotcan]

did you even see part 2? i just mentioned how many friends i've gained through surgery. if i was such a stuck up bitch i'd be hanging out with the dumb crowd just to fit in which i don't.... you're the one that sounds stuck up.. look in the mirror :)

[melitriotcan]

obtw i know who you fucking are. You think i'm stupid? 19 years old? world of warcraft? Ryoma? Are you that retarded you can't hide your identity? I don't give a shit if you had a hard life or not, everyone has had one... you're not any different, instead of growing from it, you keep wallowing in it. Your just jealous cuz i was able to get the surgery, and if you hate me that much quit making phony accounts to try and fool me, and quite watching my vids. Fuck off

[Genisis0101]

You know that you weren't held at knife point.

You played along with it, you got nervous and then you ran out.

[melitriotcan]

hmmm were you there when this happened? i don't think so. so i guess that means you know nothing of the situation... think before you speak.

[SherryLuka]

Sorry that happened to you Darcy. Let me just say I can relate. I dont like feeling small and weak either and I can tell you at 335 llb you can be pretty strong. Be well girlie!

[melitriotcan]

yeah true, but to me i was hiding behind it all... and i hate to hide myself... i just want a strong mind and mentality. and i just want to grow from my past lol. Love you girl hope you're doing good! xoxoxox ((hugs))

[curtisb3000]

It sounds like she was abused (sexually, verbally, physically), most of the women I know who got fat was because of child abuse which created low self esteem. I know this is not all people, but nearly every women I talked to said something similar to this.

[melitriotcan]

Forgiving for me is the hardest thing to do, but to talk about it makes me feel so much better. it is over with and done with, and i am moving on... i feel like today is a brand new day and i can finally let the memories fade away and be the past.... I love you rose always, you are such a sweet friend.

xoxoxox ((hugs))

[gastricRose]

I am so sorry darcy that this happen to you and I do understand something like this happen to me....and I did something that was soooo very hard to do but did...I forgave ....I could say more but won't your life is so worth being happy now enjoy what comes and its ok to talk about what hurts and it helps to heal...love ya..HUGS..love rosemary