Chapter 16
In the arms of the angel
(Kevins point of view)
I was looking at the ravaged face of Damien. I felt terrible. This was partly my fault. Then, a doctor came out. I hate the way they are. You never know what to expect. They have this blank look one that makes you fear the worst. When he came in, I had this bad feeling. My heart sank to the bottom of my chest. I took a big breath in, and told myself that everything was okay.
- Katie Jonas? The doctor said
We all got up. Damien the fastest.
- Im her husband. Theyre our family, He said
OUR. I know he didnt really think about it, but just the fact that he unconsciously included us as a part of his family made me feel happy. I really like him.
- Shes stable for now, but in critical condition. I have to tell you nothing is less sure than if shes going to live or not. Do not get your hopes up. Prepare yourself for anything, he said
That too bothered me about doctors. They arent optimists. They are realists.
- Thank you so much, I said
He nodded in my direction as a response.
- What about my babies? Damien asked with fear in his voice
This time, the doctor looked down.
- Im very sorry Sir, we tried everything we could to save both of them. Your daughter was already in critical condition when she arrived here. We tried to revive her for a very long time, but it was simply too late. She had passed away.
Damien was shaking, he sat back down slowly on the chair. Tears were streaming down his face. All of us were really sad. We kinda knew it already, but still had a little of hope I guess.
- Whatwhat about my son? He asked
- For now, hes okay. We have to watch him 24/7 starting now. Anything could happen at this stage. Hes still very little.
His dispair was brightened by the little light of hope that this news brought.
* 12 hours later *
(Katies point of view)
I felt like if a ton of bricks were banging on my head. The light that was slightly coming threw my eyes was killing me. Turn it off! I thought. WAIT. Pain, lights, thoughtsWhere am I? Am I dead? Then the familiar sound of the cardiac monitor came to my ears. I was definetly not dead. WHAT!? There were supposed to save my babies not me. The reason I came back was for them. I had to know what was going on. I took a big breath in, and opened my eyes quickly. As the whiteness of the walls and the brightness of the lights attacked me as a million needles, a nurse came to me.
- Katie, Im Marissa. Youre in the hospital. There were complications following your early labor. You were very lucky to survive. We thought we had lost you there for a bit. You must certainly have a guardian angel watching over you. Its a miracle youre alive! She said
A guardian angelYes, everything made sence now. Melanie. I always felt like she had never left my side. Like if she made sure I was okay. I love you Mel. I miss you. But
- My, myI tried to say but only a croak came out
- Shhh, shh. Because of all the medication we gave you, its going to be difficult to speak for a while. Here you go, She said giving me a pen and paper.
I wrote down, MY BABIES?!!
She looked at me sadly. I shook my head no, trying to believe what I thought wasnt real.
- Im so sorry, we tried everything. Your little girl didnt make it. But you son is still hanging on. Hes a tough little guy.
I feltnothing. Like if I was emotionless. I didnt feel sadness, pain or anything. The news of my son being alive, didnt even bring relief. I just closed back my eyes and I heard the nurse leave. Then, this silence filled me. It was so peaceful. I knew it wouldnt last long, so I made the most of every second. As I thouht, noise of someone running to my room came to my ears.
- Katie! Damien said as he kneeled down next to me.
I opened my eyes as he kissed me. Usually, when he kissed me I was transported with love, passion and joy. This time nothing, rien, nada.
- I thought I had lost you. II cant live without you,Damien said as he took my hand.
I took the piece of paper and wrote down: I WANT TO SEE HER. He nodded yes and mouthed me too. He got up and talked to the nurse. She left and soon came back carrying a little bundle in a pink blancket. I sat up. Damien sat next to me. She put my baby girl in my arms. She looked so beautiful. Like if she was sleeping.
For a very long time, Damien and I stared at our child. Who hadnt had a chance to life. Who had left before she had arrived. Our child who had died.
Escaping one last time
It's easier to believe in this sweet madness
Oh, this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here
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Stop Torturing Me With The SADNESS!! Thaz was so sad...
UhHoHello73 3 years ago
Sorry :P, but this is just the beginning...
gserevitch 3 years ago