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[fonkymaster]

Been suicidal for about a year or so now, but due to not believing anything after this life, I am too afraid to do it.

If there WAS an afterlife, I would be gone in a heartbeat. But ultimately, I am here, and too afraid, so might as well live it, since this is the only consciousness I will ever have for the blink of an eye my mind exists in its current stage.

[bmb2058]

There is an afterlife and it's very loving and welcoming to everyone, even hitler. but you have a mission that you must follow through with.

[bigyymajesticyy]

Stupid bitches like this are weak to the world

[fonkymaster]

@finalfantasy8911

Well, it is the fear keeping me here, though.

[finalfantasy8911]

@fonkymaster

Hehe, such an illogical fear of literally nothing! A hindering weakness; though not one you had a choice to avoid, so oh well. Going to sleep and experiencing black emptiness until waking up is very similar if not exactly like being nonexistent, only difference is that its a significantly shorter amount of time & you can come out of it by a number of circumstances. With a strong enough will you can erase that irrational fear, you know.

[fonkymaster]

@finalfantasy8911

Just naturally afraid of death, and not ever being able to experience anything ever again is what gets me so much. It is just the total cessation of existence that is so scary.

It isn't really the void I dwell on, life is pretty much miserable and I see no real reason I should live it, but that fear of never knowing anything anymore. I just can't stomach an oblivion. So I figure, may as well live. It is inevitable anyway and there is a lot I have left to see

[finalfantasy8911]

@fonkymaster

If you believe that then surely you should know that you are fearing what you have done more than anything else; not existing. In other words, you've dwelled in that void for longer than you have lived. And another thing, the negatives of this life don't exist in that oblivion, only pure nothingness. So why are you fearful of that?

[SamFairhall92]

your too fit to die

[ineedabin]

there is life after this one and it is eternal , Jesus Christ is real and so is God , seek and ye shall find , knock and it shall be opened , you must ask Jesus to save you and he will and will give you a life worth living , try it you hae nothing to lose but everything to gain , do not live a empty life and search for something that is not going to happen .John 3;16

[xYourKnifeMyBack]

Does everyone get that depressed, hate reality feeling lots of time too?

[2bored4school]

@supernightslash

Don't kill yourself. I hate my life a considerably large amount of the time, but doing something like that would hurt a trillion times more to your family members. Itsnot worth it to die with so many beautiful things kn this planet..you could find a beautiful woman or man who likes YOU for who you are, do fucking crazy hard drugs, steal,winning the lottery but as we all know that shits impossible lol but whatever..live life.

[VoiceInBlackness]

@supernightslash If YOU want change,then start doing things different.Life is tough so dont make it any tougher by telling yourself YOU are a piece of garbage,re-program your head so YOU dont fall for the lies.I suggest instead of spending hours trying to cut yourself,spend those hours bettering your mind....might sound stupid but what have YOU got to lose,YOU have dreams and goals.If YOU would like to obtain them,learn patience,dont give in when YOU fail,learn reflection,learn to handle stress.