How could I do that? How could I let everything that meant anything to me walk away so easily? I don't even know myself... I just remember telling myself... If shes happy I am. That's not true though... I mean I'm happy for her, but I'm not happy. Sitting here in the darkness of my bedroom I sighed, I knew that could be me... she could be mine. I was stupid and ashamed of the choices I'd made. I should of just told her! I'm not thirteen anymore, I should know better than to play games! The sad part is that at one point I really thought she was the one. The girl I'd marry, the one I'd be with forever. But now I'm not even sure. Its hard to tell with the damage thats been done. We don't even speak anymore, if we do its only to argue! I can't help but blame her to her face. I tell her that if she didn't decide to date the guy I hated most in the world... I wont even mention his name! I tell her that if she didn't decide to date him, we'd still be friends. She tells me its my fault, that as her friend I should be happy for her. Shes right, it is my fault. I'm a fool to think shed wait around forever.
Me and her had a good thing going back then. We'd flirt all the time and cuddle on the sofa as we watched a movie, I'd get a kiss on the cheek everytime she left and that one time I even got the courage to give her a real kiss. It was good, amazing even, there was something special about it. It proved that we could be something special. Maybe I could've loved her... its too late now though. Maybe I could've shown her how much a cared, that I still care about her more than she could know... maybe I still can... maybe I can make it right. Put the balance back and tempt fate a little bit... maybe its not too late! Washed over with a new feeling of hope a fresh smile on my face I grabbed by blackberry from my desk and text her: 'Hey. I just wanted to say I'm sorry... and that I really need to talk to you soon.' I was about to place my phone back down when it buzzed again 'Hows tomorrow morning? Ten?' I grinned 'Super.. jut name a place' again, the reply came instantly 'yours?' my fingers danced on the keys and with a smirk on my face I pressed send 'I'll be there ;)' I couldn't help but let a small laugh escape as I read her reply 'Course you will dummy! you live there! :-P anyway.. I'm off to bed... Night! x' sweet, patronising, lovable Miley. I thought.. 'Night x' I returned the kiss as a gentleman should and put my phone back down. I lay back on my bed and let my eyes close peacefully before falling into a sweet slumber for a change.
I applied aftershave then ruffled up my hair a bit. 9:53 and I had to look perfect for when Miley arrived. I smoothed my hair down. It still didn't look right. I brushed it to the side... nope... wasn't quite right. Then it hit me, leaving my hair pushed over I pulled the piece from above my left eye letting it hang down just the way she liked it.. perfect. 'DOOR!' I head Joe yell from across the hall, sharing an apartment with him was SO annoying! Door, phone, dishes, trash.. one order after another, he didn't get his lazy ass up for anything except his girlfriend Demi. This time, I didn't mind his orders though, I opened the door with a smile to see Miley there 'Hey' I smiled back 'Hi, coming in then?' I opened the door wider and she smiled walking past, she headed straight to my room and I followed her.
We both sat on my bed 'So?' she coaxed 'you wanted to talk to me?' 'Yeah' I nodded 'I need you to know a few things' 'Okay' I smiled up at her 'First off I'm sorry, none of it was your fault and I shouldn't of even suggested that' 'Its fine Nick. You apologised, that's all I wanted' I nodded 'right. Well.. I need you to... look, before I go on I want you to know that I.. I need you in my life.. nothing is worth your friendship to me' she smiled 'Same. Not even Josh is worth that' I nodded taking a deep breath to prepare myself mentally 'Look, what I'm trying to say is that I didn't know how good you were for me.. I knew we could be something but I didn't know I needed you so much' I looked at her monitoring her reaction 'But now.. the more I think about it the more I see everything that we could be' her facial expression seemed frozen.. but it could be worse I decided carrying on 'And like I said, none of what happened was your fault, I know that it was my fault, leaving you in the lurch like that but.. but I'm gonna treat you better.. you mean so much to me Mi, if I had one just one wish, I'd know what to wish for in an instant, I'd wish that you'd be with me forever'
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ahhhh this was so cute i love how you put words from the song in there that is one of my favorites from them
CorinaVanessa 10 months ago
@CorinaVanessa Thanks :) I try to include the words but not so much you feel like youre reading the idea for a music video :-P I didn't expect any views or comments so fast either so thanks again haha :)
XxXzAnEsSaXxXAWWW 10 months ago