Feed Me I'm Cranky -- A Look at the Cranky One in 2002

I was cleaning out the closet and came upon my high school journal. I read you a few snippets. Gotta know where I came from to see how it shaped my journey today.

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• weight loss
• health
• journey
• self-esteem

[ladieessence]

Wow............the irony of your journal from 2002 is typically how I feel day to day "now" and I am about to be 30 years old..........When you struggle with things in your life some times you feel like if those things were better naturally life would be better.......

[feedmeimcranky]

Yes. I think that's the indicator here that we should pay attention to. Losing weight or looking a certain way is not a cure-all or some magic solution that can erase the foundation of who we are or what our life experiences have been. If you ever want to chat, I'm here!

[liplylips]

In ALWAYS quiet in class..I'm always alone too. i know its my fault because i always chose to be alone.

[liplylips]

aww this makes me sad..the part about i stay home all the time and makes up exuses..im that way beause i feel so fat and unattractive. I'm a senior 17 gonna be 18 next year and there are days when i am happy, the days where i weight 110 but there are more days when i feel gross close to 120lbs..by the way im only 5 feet tall so those extra lbs look like alot on me :(

[shinetrue]

ahh, i can relate about reading old journal entries and also with the weight loss. there is such a mix of feelings that come up when i read old entries... but what i focus on is compassion for my younger self, & that feeling of hope, and appreciation that no matter what it was i was writing about at the time.. things managed to just work themselves out eventually. now that i'm fitter though, i realize it was never really about the weight to begin with..