He pulls away and stares down at me. I look down. "Can I ask you something?" I ask.
"Yeah?"
"If, what happens to you, makes it dangerous for me to be with you, will you really leave me again?" I got tears in my eyes at the thought.
He stays silent.
I bite my lip and stand up ulling away from him. My head spun for a few split seconds then I faced him. "Tell me please..."
He doesn't speak, instead his eyes bour into mine with such intencity.
"Joe... I need to know.. If that happens are you really going back on your promise of being with me?" I waited. My eyes filled with tears as he looked away. "Tell me..! Joe, I can't bare this pain again.. What would braking up with a person that might not hurt me, be the better result, if you're just going to leave me alone again...?! I don't know how much of this I can take Joe..." I was crying.
"Demi---"
"No. Joe I need to hear an answer. I've already told you many times; that I wouldn't care about getting hurt as long as I'm with you.. In fact, any physical pain is less painful than what you have put me through, with the leaving, and suicide, then living for 4 or 5 months without telling me the truth, forcing me into another guy's arms, and pretending to be another vampire and kissing me making me feel worser than what I had already felt.. I don't want to get lied to anymore Joe.. I don't know if my heart can take it anymore.. If right now you promise me that you won't leave me, than mean it for once.. Please. Don't make a promise that you'll end up breaking.." I cried. Tears streaming down my face. "Please..."
He looked at me, his eyes glistening. "I never intended this to happen. I never wanted to hurt you like I have done Demi. I'm sorry that I've put you through so much pain. And I'm sorry that saying sorry doesn't seem to help. I don't know what else to say, I can't change back time... I can't change what I have done to you... I never wanted you to experience so much pain... Please forgive me... I don't know if I can make that promise... I want to be with you forever, but I don't know what I really am, or what will happen.. but I swear I will always love you.. Please Demi understand me. Don't cry.." He sniffed quietly as the tears streaked silently down his cheeks. He reached a hand out toward me. I back away. He puts his hand down hurt that I rejected his touch. He looked down.
"I've tried Joe. I haven't stopped trying.. And how do you not expect me to cry because of this..? You're the one who tells me to stop, but the problem is that you're the one who causes me to cry.. You don't know what its like to wait till something warm surrounds you to make you think he's there with you, then cry later because its not.. You don't know how high my hopes get everytime you promise to never leave again then you choose to committ suicide, destroying all the hope I've ever had...!" I spoke through sobs.
Tears streaked down his cheeks. He tried wiping them away but they kept falling.
(Joe's POV)
I just want to die.
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:'( Anybody cried?
gosh this is soo sad please dont let them break up again 'cuz i think i'll die :S
TrusTme92 2 years ago 7
You see girls crying over guys all the time... but when a guy cries over a girl, now that's heartbreaking. :'(
camigirl270 1 year ago 4