I had to get this message out and hopefully itll be the message thatll buy me more time on this planet that Im not having too much fun on at the moment. What I hope for is that someone out they get...
I had to get this message out and hopefully itll be the message thatll buy me more time on this planet that Im not having too much fun on at the moment. What I hope for is that someone out they gets me and puts me on the right path.
The best thing someone has said about me so far in life -
I see in you someone bursting with creative potential; just that you need to get better organized and better connected to the right kind of people. People like me who are willing to do cooperative productions! JP Fenyo, Philosopher
First Song In The Video: Galt Aureus - Our Own Versailles Second Song In The Video: Jay Z " Run This Town " - Chris Geo Remix
My Message -
Around this time last year I was at my lowest ebb and made a vow to top myself if things didnt get any better. Whilst things certainly havent got worse theyve stayed the same. Despite having some fantastic highs and lows since that vow but this isnt a part of like I just cant accept right now.
Its time to admit that Im not psychologically sound at the moment as I my desire for something greater is always fighting with my laziness and carelessness resulting in the emotional wreck that I can be at times when no ones looking. Im always looking towards making it in the entertainment industry however Ive long accepted that this industry is often glorified as something that its not as Ive experienced this glorification first hand thanks to dabbling in minor fame.
Whilst entertaining might be my thing that in itself doing has its ups and downs whenever I want to do it or not. But in hindsight the best thing about entertaining others is the reaction I get off people of which on a financial sense is in the gutter right now. But on a human sense I put smiles on peoples faces and bring out healthy laughter out of them. However this is entertainment at my expense Im the one doing all this work to entertain whilst they just watch and read.
Of course life is full of these pub clowns throughout the country. However this is not what I want to be but I find it hard to break the habit because its all I know. When I try and stop been the pub clown I find my self been dragged back because I cant force myself to be something Im not whenever thats a job seeker looking for a job, painting a picture to others of been an outstanding member of society or someone who champions the education establishment. These things arent me and I cant force myself to do them for free when I get a much better reaction off people been an entertainer for free.
Ive tried, Ive tried and Ive tried to become someone who works in retail but it just isnt me and never will be. All I wanted when I looked to work in retail was something sustainable but all I got was people taking advantage of me because Im gullible. The people at REMPLOY who made an half promise to get me a job at my local ASDA as long as I slave away for ten weeks for peanuts.
Now Id never questions Gods existence again because Ive done that before and its had its results. A few year ago I asked god to prove himself by bringing my cat into my room and my cat did come in an instant. This is because god is within all of us living creatures, plants, the planet and whatever else is in the universe. Im not a religious person and youd never find me becoming a Christian or Muslim because I dont want to spend my time reading and understating these complex affairs when life is so much simpler than these complicated books. However I believe in a God.
What I want from you God is something that is better than what Im going through right now. Im not asking for anything thing big because big means big and not better. I want the god in all of us to give me the opportunity to grow into something better than what I am now. A life that isnt going to be an endless cycle of what Im going through right now - something to look forward to that will stop these suicidal thoughts running through my mind.
Hopefully the God in all of us will understand my plea and will send me on the right path even if it begins in a trip to the mental services to get myself psychologically sound. Ill be 30 in 2019 and Ill only get they if the god in all of you put me on the right path as I cant take this life that Im going through for much longer.
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i know life is tuff but hang in there man...i know said u wouldn't become a christian bcuz of having to read a complex book, but the truth is christianity isn't about reading through the bible but knowing the God of all creation loves us! He loves us so much that He sent His only Son Jesus Christ to die for us so that we sinners could be seen as clean in the presence of a Holy God. this world is tough bcuz its cursed with sin but accepting Jesus as your Savior u can live in heaven with GOD 4ever
i'm glad you believe there's a God but there's so much more. you are waiting for God to come to you, but u most come to Him first. He can change your life and your time after this life but u most believe God came as man, lived a sinless life, but Jesus was put on the cross as if He was a murderer. God sacrificed Himself for us. i understand a youtube comment can't completely clear things up for you but if have any questions I'm here for you man
U R ONE OF US...The Power of ONE is greater than the power of MANY WANNABES! U R NOT A WANNABE! YOU are a SUCCESS STORY WAITING TO BE DISCOVERED! But all truly good things take effort, time and perseverance! I'm counting on YOU! I'm ONE of YOU!
Yeh what Pablo said. You are loved brother! Enough of the defeat talk already. You give out a message in your own style,a message that others need to hear. big up Damo. Subbed and Loved.
There is something in the human spirit that will survive and prevail. There is a tiny and brilliant light burning in the heart of man that will not go out no matter how dark the world becomes. You are all perfect, beautiful, divine and already have everything you will ever need. ;p
stick in there damon, things will pick up, suicide is the easy way out man... and just think, may 1st will be great :D any update on that? how many peeps are coming, any meet-up place and time?
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You are loved brother!
Enough of the defeat talk already.
You give out a message in your own style,a message that others need to hear.
big up Damo.
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