So Final....Goodbye

This song came about from a conversation I had with my Mum which has haunted me for a long time.

On her last Christmas on this Earth she said to me "This will be my last Christmas" and I said that was ridiculous, I thought she was going to beat the cancer. I didn't listen to her and she was right. I spent that Christmas with my wife's family when it should have been with her and I've felt guilty about it ever since.

When my Mum died I never said goodbye to her, on the weekend before she died I watched her go into a coma and I didn't say 'goodbye' to her, I just sat beside her but never said a word.

She died on the Monday whilst I was at work. I came and sat beside her before they took her away.

Again I never said a word and have been riddled with guilt ever since.

This song is my penance.

Mum I love you and Goodbye,

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[mgturn99]

This is such a beautiful song! I'm so sorry for your loss. I had a similar experience with my dad...walking home from school one day and he told me to come home with him, but I argued and chose to go to a friends house. That was the last time I saw him alive. I regret it every day. This song resonates deeply, beautifully done!

-Anthony

[stevenjackson1958]

@mgturn99

Thankyou, you can never tell what is going to happen in the future, it would be nice to turn the clock back but in the end I think you do find forgiveness, it just takes time.

[Caelia2008]

Beautiful song, Steve!

[stevenjackson1958]

@Caelia2008 Thanks Caelia...sometimes we have to write the sad songs to get to the happy songs.

[Mayflower109]

Very touching! Great song, love it!

[Caelia2008]

@stevenjackson1958 I agree. Beautiful things can definitely sprout from grief.