Schizoaffective, the real deal

ClairvoyantMediumOne's webcam video March 18, 2011 08:37 AM

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• schizoaffective. bipolar
• schizophrenia. delusions
• psychosis

[AlexanderMazarakis]

She seems really happy for someone with a psychological disorder.

[ClairvoyantMediumOne]

@AlexanderMazarakis It's called social anxiety. I'm putting myself out there, and in doing so you can either have my giddy silly side or my angry side......take your pick :)

[AlexanderMazarakis]

@ClairvoyantMediumOne sorry, i didn't intend to be so ignorant. I hope i haven''t offended you.

[ClairvoyantMediumOne]

@AlexanderMazarakis Nope not offended. Just figured I would give you reason for my strange happiness lol. I tend to laugh at everything ....even when people think I should cry. I don't like to cry...I've even got a video I've not made public for that reason....but I'm thinking about it. :)

[LivingDead53]

I posted my videos, and I think it's abnormal. It hurts my brain or I feel dizzy. But when it first happened, I clung to it. I dream about the future too. It's a machine.

[ClairvoyantMediumOne]

@LivingDead53 The pain and dizziness I used to get until I realized it was just a spirit trying to get my attention.....now I don't get it that often....but I do also "acknowledge' then when they are around, rather than just thinking its something wrong with me....

[hannahg39]

I totally agree with you.I have been labeled as DID(or "multiple personality"),PTSD,ADHD, and they can't decide if I'm bipolar 1 or schizoaffective.I stopped talking to my doctors at a certain time so they don't know just how "delusional" I really am!The way I see it I'm just me no matter how "different" that might be.They tried to put me on 900mg of Seroquel!I only take about half of that.I think doctors try to label you to make their job easier,LOL! I too miss my manic episodes so much.

[jordannoelle9]

thank you for posting this...i dont feel so alone. youre right, people say its wrong or doesnt fit just because its not something they can understand. and its hard to explain it. ahahahah also i love what u said about being a yoyo on a shelf and trying to find a manic moment when youre low. seriously im addicted to adrenaline rushes too high five back...continuing to figure myself out and not letting NO ONE tell me who the fuck i am.... :P

[BoyMonarch]

I swear, schizophrenics are the most irritating people on the planet.

[valsharai]

@SuperRevelacao and by "stable" emotional state I am not talking about influencing it with negative thinking or positive thinking -- it's physiological first, psychological second. By physiological I am not talking about treating it with pharmaceutical drugs. The body can heal and recover itself without those but nutritional healing must come first, then secondarily psychological intervention as a support.

[valsharai]

@SuperRevelacao Mood swings aren't healthy. Family history of manic depression (now known as bipolar disorder) and relative of schizophrenic uncle talking here... Don't ever convince yourself that mood swings are "normal". It's possible to be a human being who feels emotions without those emotions getting out of hand, out of balance, reaching extremes of "passion" frequently during the course of an hour or a day or a week. It's NOT "normal". A "stable" emotional state is healthy!

[SuperRevelacao]

mood swings if you think negative most of the time, the key is to believe and try your best even if you fail, failure is part of life! i think you are normal, and a nice woman, a great mother aswell, i can tell you have been through a lot! you remind me of my own mother a lot! just be strong! and stay positive! and be around people that make you feel good and that love and support you! you dont have to feel guilty about anything, if you feel like its wrong, just try your best to make it right!

[SuperRevelacao]

open window because i thought i would jump out! but then i did research and came across the famous illness i thought i had, schitzophrenia! i believe that people who have '' schitz'' are just regular people who have panic attacks and think they truely see things and hear things, now of course going with your gut feeling and having dellusions are two diiferent thing! dont get me wrong. and mood swings are just emotions which is normal, of course you would have mood swings if you think negative

[SuperRevelacao]

obsessed with religion, and every little thing i did i thought i was doing wrong. my grandma would tell me that the devil is this and that, and really would scare me. it would be like watching a horror movie 24/7. and i would be scared of these so called demons, i would have panic attacks over analyzing what she said! and during my panic attacks would lastest for like 30 mins at most i thought i would see and hear things. i would be scared to sleep next to an open window because i thought i woul

[SuperRevelacao]

which is a complete lie! intead of believeing you are wothless. start seeing your strengths and your talents, and what you are good at. dont compare yourself to other people, because every single person has their own way yo express themselves. maybe they expericenced pain and hurt that cause them to think the way they do and act. trust me people! all of you are normal!!! and beautiful!!!! i truely do believe that. i can speak from my own experience, i thought i was going crazy! my family was ob

[SuperRevelacao]

being is very analytical( which is human nature) they try to find what catagoery or label they fit in! everyone experiences fear, and anxiety! some more than others which is ok. maybe people fear being schitz so much or believe that they are schitz when in reality they are just anxious and think that the bad voices in their heads arent normal, that those bad voices are the voices that make you doubt yourself and believe that you are worthless which is a