I Miss You Dad, (Survivor of suicide...the pain left behind after suicide)

Survivor of Suicide, trying to survive the one year anniversary of my Dad's suicide. Making this video was a way to help me cope. I tried to express what is in my heart....but I can't find words for. I love you Dad, and I miss you every moment of every single day .... ♥

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• suicide
• survivor of suicide
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• survivors of suicide
• prevention of suicide
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• The Tin Man
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• miss you
• Dad
• Daddy
• Father
• loss

[achille935]

My father committed suicide on August 27 2011 never been in this much pain in my life

[Nikki1of7]

@achille935 I am sorry to hear you are in so much pain. It hurts so very much. One just feels so robbed, abandoned with suicide. It is difficult to come to terms with.... I think though we do carry on and learn to live with the pain, we are never the same. Know that others do understand and care ((hugs of understanding))

[missstunna2011]

My dad commited suicide when i was ten years old he was my best friend i did everything with him i blame my self till this day ill never be the same

[Nikki1of7]

@missstunna2011 oh that just breaks my heart! I hope you will be able to find a measure of peace and KNOW it was not your fault. You were only ten!! No, it wasn't your fault at all!! It is called survivors guilt, and I truly hope you can overcome it. You are in my thoughts ♥♥

[Ray021Halliwell]

My dad killed himself when i was 7. I'm 19 now and it's made me bitter. I feel like he cheated me out of time that my sister's got to spend with him. December was the 12 year anniversary...I didn't even get to go to his grave

[Nikki1of7]

@Ray021Halliwell I can understand why you would feel this way. I am an adult and I still feel cheated and robbed. We had a whole life to live, so much to share.. and that was taken from us. I am sorry you are hurting and I hope you can find a way to forgive him, if not his actions, so that you may find some peace.

[strandmotors100]

thank you for wrighting back to me but my dad killed him self as well and it rally hurts im only 13 and this sunday coming up it will be new years day that means it has been a year i wont to be with him but i know he wont like me to do that and it dont get better xxxxx

[Nikki1of7]

@strandmotors100 It does hurt, it hurts a lot. The first year anniversary was very difficult for me, my heart goes out to you. I remember so well feeling it will never get better, that my life would never be " ok " again. It will never be what it once was, but it will get "better" than it feels right now.

[xvsjim12]

im 25 and ive felt like suicide but some thing holds me back like a unseen force

[shellscutie]

@TheSilk661 No it doesn't i am 13 now

[TheClabumbum]

My mom killed herself when i was 12 years old, march 2001. I miss her everyday and wish there was something i could of done to stop her doing that. I wasnt in her care at the time, and i blame myself everyday, i broke her heart, the fact she could never care for me. I love you momma so much, id do anything for just an hour with you. Sleep tight beautiful lady in the arms of an angel, with my precious little baby angel in her arms as well. im glad they have each other up there. xxxxx

[sananekiyani]

my dad killed himself on 18 mart 2010.. missing him so much. i dont know why he did it. but it hurts so much. sometimes i feel that i cant even breathe. trying ti live with this pain is too much for me and i cant handle it. though i am always smiling deep inside every single moment i live is like a torture. why dad why? couldnt you imagine what i would be without you.. look at me now.. im not "me" anymore.. Im so sorry for your losts friends.. so sorry..

[bellyanderson]

my love to all of you, Ive seen what this pain has done to my best friend, her step dad, who was like her real dad killed him self a few years ago now, such a wonderful man, and no one knew he was in the slightest down, He drank weed killer, and still nearly every day i watch a silent tear fall down her beautiful face and the mention of his name. He really was the perfect dad to her,

Rest in peace andrew, em isnt angry, just wishes she was your rock, like you were for her. smile down on her.

[lu4thelord]

@achille935 My daddy left us when I was 2 yrs. old....never understood or knew why. Here I am, some 55 years later with a hole in my heart that I cannot fill.....

[KerysLovesBVB]

This made me feel upset, im so sorry for all of your loss, its not nice, especially when they kill themselves. I nearly cryed.. ♥ you all ♥ xx

P.S im sowwie ♥♥

[msjenifa]

Nikki & all, I too am so sorry for your loss, the pain you feel. He is with you, and I'm sure deeply regretful that he didn't know how those he left would suffer his loss of life with them.

Be angry with the disease, its awful, its shocking, its cruel, besides the suffering of the recipient is the family & friends left behind after senseless suicides; filled with pain, anger. Depression is what kills; a mental illness, if the stigma wasnt so great, men who suffer in silence may seek help.

[snides2009]

My dad committed suicide when I was 2, now I am getting married in 3 months and all the hurt, anger and bitterness is coming back. I know its not my fault, but I have missed out on so much like I have never had a father daughter dance, and I have no dad to walk me down the aisle. It sucks but when a parent or anyone that is close to you kills themselves, it is an everyday battle to cope, it will get better with time, this I promise.