H e r o

I'm sorry everyone for not posting anything for a while. life is confusing. that's all.

honestly, I'm so fed up with a few things, but mainly myself. I'm so selfish. why am I so selfish. honestly. I just realized now, this morning, while making this (it only took me like 10 minutes tops.) that my main priority lately is myself, and making myself happy. and I've been searching, searching, searching for what makes me happy. but honestly it was in front of me all along. Caramel makes me happy. she is so freaking amazing, you guys. I can't describe how much I love her, and I feel like a terrible mommy for not having her first on my list of things to do. but school takes so much effort. friends take so much effort. choices are so confusing. it sucks. it really really does. but there isn't one day where I haven't thought of caramel and smiled. I promise you all that. sure , my equitation sucks, and Caramel and I are kind of going through a rough patch, but shit happens. I can't go into the show ring and win every class. I haven't been able to do that since I rode Rosie. but I don't care. Caramel has given me everything. when I first got her, I'm not going to lie, I wanted to be like Sierra and Sierra, (COVERGiRLproductons) or Erin and Splash (ElectricStride), but I can't. I can't be anything but myself. and its going to take years and years to look as flawless as Sierra and Erin. but I don't care. I honestly think that Caramel's an Angel, sent down into a little 14.3 horse's body, to teach me that there's more to life than school, and boys, and parties, and getting away with things that I just shouldn't be doing. (Don't worry. I'm smart. Ha.) I'm trying so so hard you guys, to be everything that everyone wants me to be. a loyal sister. a gracious daughter. a good friend. a peace keeper at times when I'm stuck in the fucking middle. but the highlight of my week, you guys, is on tuesday nights, when I lesson with madison, and its the only time of the week that I can legitimately(sp?) be myself, and not have to worry. But I love you guys, for staying subscribed to me, and helping get through all the shit that gets thrown at me, especially since Caramel is a mare. I love you guys so so much, you don't even know. Most of you have been with me since my love of luke, my winnings with rosie, and how Rudy got taken right out of my hands, only to see 8 months later that he's a crazy, highstrung dangerous thoroughbred who needs a spa day. I owe it to you guys. you guys are my hero.

Love always,
Jamie

p.s. you're absolutely amazing if you read all of that. but I don't blame you if you didn't.

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[goldie443]

Read the whole thing (: My life hasn't been the best either. Things will get better.(or so i'm told) lol You guys are amazing. Yes I am the crazy pshycopath that freaked out when i saw caramel in a video. bahahaha I'm glad you bought her because if i had, i would never had been able to make her look that good.

[Live4theponies]

@goldie443 aww, thanks so much<3

[GoldenAngelAbbie]

Read the whole thing.♥ Btw I miss you like hell. And your equitation does not suck, and I'm the same way. And Caramel loves you no matter what. You know I'm always here no matter what, I'm busy but I drop everything for friends, mostly my RabbleBabbleButt. :P ♥

And this is pretty good. Oh, and Mattie&Cody send their love, too. :D

[Live4theponies]

@GoldenAngelAbbie aww i miss you too.thank you so much. <33

[haven60786]

Read the whole description. I feel almost the same way. If you ever need someone to talk to, you can talk to mee. Amazing video btw <3

[Live4theponies]

@haven60786 that means a lot. thankyou <33

[equestrian873]

I really don't know what you mean when you say that your eq sucks. You're one of the best riders on here :). And you and Caramel are an amazing team; you guys are gonna go far. Just give it time and you'll see that you two were totally meant to be :).

[haven60786]

@Live4theponies no problem (:

[Live4theponies]

@OreoPonyGirl aww thank you. and im madd happy for you.

[OreoPonyGirl]

I read the entire thing (: you do NOT have bad eq, at all. you have amazing eq. (: quit being so hard on yourself. OH and guess who is getting a horse in april <3