Borderline Personality Disorder, short on how it affected me (TRIGGER!!!!)

WARNING: GRAPHIC CONTENT, VIEWER DISCRETION IS ADVISED!This is a quick video on how Borderline Personality Disorder has an impact on my life as I live with it. I threw it together quickly, and I plan to put together a better video that can show you more detailed of what my life is like with this terrible disease. Please, if you think you have a mental illness in any way, seek help, do not be ashamed or feel degraded.

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[LeahClearwaterWolf]

my friends get mad at me when i put up a wall between us but i only do it for a good reason....i cant let them see my dark side otherwise they would probably leave me n i just cant be alone. me n my friend describe our situation with BPD like life is a cliff n our best option right now is to jump.....BPD has changed my life....once my friends knew me as a happy girl now they know me as the little emo kid...its hard at school too cause ive been bullied all my life and i cant stand it any longer..

[Bryon1981]

I know, but hang in there. I does get better as time goes on. It does suck the we got this bag of chips, but it also can be a gift. As one friend told me, not on normie could be able to handle an hour of we live though in a life time. We truly have something to be proud of.

[waza302]

as you would no there are few of us males i mean wit bpd i find in my world out bush males don`t have feelings and i don`t have friends they all leave cannot handle me i can never handle myself how can i expect a friend to handle me even if i shelter them from my darkness it don`t hide me how can a love one truly love me when i cannot truly love myself

[Bryon1981]

You are asking me the same questions that I used to ask myself. I agree with you that being a man with BPD is very challenging, in a woman dominating disorder. As men, we don't much to go by to how we are affected. I don't know how things work in Australia, but if you can get some help, there are great treatment out there for BPD; Such as DPT. They can help you find your way. The trick in all of this, YOU have to want to get better. I hope this helps. Take care and good luck.

[waza302]

very tru what more can i say but i wish when the barrel is there i wish i could pull the trigger i wish it to end but can never make it end and in time i feel worse neverendin sadness such our life BPD

[Bryon1981]

Keep working at this sadness and emptiness that we have to deal with, as time goes by and with help, it does get better. I'm working on another BPD video. I feel your pain and suffering, hang in there.

[kalvieXkitteh]

there should be a video like this about NPD and HPD. =) BPD sadly isnt my only demon

[LiaTyson]

I cant go on any longer

[kayjanew]

To Bryon....you are so right....it is a gift as well as a curse...i have been diagnosed with different things...now registered disabled with bi-polar and now bpd.....i plan to save the world ....start my own charity.....lets do it together...all you 'ill' but very advanced humans.......xxxxx

[LeahClearwaterWolf]

thanks and i've been tring to see the good side of life but for some reason it always seem so far ahead of me and i can't get a grip on it. this disorder makes me hate my life and myself and because of that on countless occations i have cut and try to kill myself but aparently god has a different plan for me but i dont know what that is. sometimes i think that he hates me because everything in my life always goes wrong and plus he made me have this disorder

[LeahClearwaterWolf]

thanks and my friends call me Leah because of my bad temper n mood swings

[waza302]

how r u leah i no were u come from just hang in there thats my sayin that gets me through times can get toughat a instance but they always pass hang in there