Anti Nostalgic [Dedication]

I do not own the song or pictures used in this video.

I guess the reason of this video needs quite the explanation.Recently,my mom left us.My dad and I are now on our own,and we both miss her terribly.It seems pretty much everything in the house reminds us of her.So,to help ease the pain,I began to look at pictures.Then an idea just happened to appear in my head.It would be so nice to make a dedication video to my mother.

I discovered this video really did help me to calm down a bit.It gave me time to think,and helped me realize I wasn't the only one going through hard times.So my video began to change up.Instead of making the whole thing sad,I needed to add some happy pictures.Thus explaining the children with their mothers.An attempt at symbolizing me and my mother.

As I read some stories that were quite sad,I realized other people are going through similar things.I can't be the only one.My mother always believed in guardian angels watching over us.Which is why I put angels in the very end of the video.Everyone needs a guardian angel to watch over them and dry their tears.I really hope you will enjoy this video.It has done a lot of healing for me.

Song: Anti Nostalgic
Artist: Kotani Kinya

Lyrics:
Toumei ga yozora somete
Hitori aruku itsumo no kaerimichi
Kuchizusamu konna kimochi
Nemuru kimi ni todoketai na OH... UM...
Nanika ni obieteru jibun ga chotto iya ni naru
Tsugeru omoi torinokoshita hibi ni...
Dokoka ni wasureteru kokoro ga chotto itakunaru
Toki wo tsunagu hoshi no yoru ni kimi wo sagashiteru
Toozakaru kumo ni nosete
Boku no kimochi tachidomaru kaerimichi
Kimi wa mou yume no tsuzuki
Todoku hazu mo nai koto da to wakatteiru
Namida ga koboreteru egao ga chotto hoshikunaru
kimi no soba ni ireru dake de boku wa...
Dareka ga toikakeru rikutsu ga motto hoshikunaru
kieru kage ni mabushisugita hibi wo utsushiteru
Nanika ni obieteru jibun ga chotto iya ni naru
Tsugeru omoi torinokoshita hibi ni...
Dokoka ni wasureteru kokoro ga chotto itakunaru
Toki wo tsunagu hoshi no yoru ni kimi wo sagashïteru

English Lyrics:
Transparency dyes the night sky, and
I walk alone on the road that always leads home.
Singing to myself, I want to send these kinds of feelings
to you in your sleep, oh, um...
I'm tangled up in something; I'm getting a little sick of myself --
tangled up in the feelings to convey to those days that have been left behind...
The heart I've forgotten somewhere is starting to hurt a little.
I keep searching for you in a night lit by the stars that are bound to that time.
I place my feelings on the receding clouds
on the road home, where I pause to stand.
You are already a part of my continuing dreams;
I know that (those feelings) can't possibly reach you from here.
The tears keep falling; jut by being able to be close to you,
I'm starting to want a smile, just a little...
Someone asks questions; I'm starting to want this to make more sense.
You cast those too-brilliant days into a fading shadow.
I'm tangled up in something; I'm getting a little sick of myself --
tangled up in the feelings to convey to those days that have been left behind...
The heart I've forgotten somewhere is starting to hurt a little.
I keep searching for you in a night lit by the stars that are bound to that time.

Category:

Entertainment

Tags:

• anime
• sad
• angels
• child
• mother
• gone
• anti
• nostalgic
• memories
• gravitation
• kotani
• kinya

[Oyasumi12]

Great video!! I love this song and the lyrics are awesome! You chose nice pictures!

I understand how you feel! My dad died when I was six and last year also my mum died. Now I'm all alone! Music also helps me to keep on living... somehow!

[littlerandomgirl]

Sorry to hear about your losses.God bless

[yaoismexy78]

Wow, this video is really good. I am so sorry about your mom....hope all goes well later for you

[littlerandomgirl]

Thank you ^^

[ItachiRogueNinja]

I don't know how to explain this but I'm really sorry about what's going on in your life now. I pray that everything will turn out good.

[littlerandomgirl]

Thanks for your support

[jamanimefan]

great video and great pictures!!!! the video is beautiful!! ^ ^...i didn't read the description...i just read it!!! ahhhhhh...the lyrics r beautiful...and, i'm so sorry for ur lost...(i wanna cry)

[feelslikethefirst]

wow im crying. not an easy feat. im so sorry for your loss. stay strong <3

[littlerandomgirl]

Thank you very much

It really means a lot to me ^^

[CosplayObsession]

The video is beautiful. The music is fitting even though I do not know the lyrics.

I'm very sorry for your loss. You seem to keep her close though! I hope you feel better. I really do not know what else to say but stay strong and know this that she will be there for you.

She is always in your heart and watching you.

*hugs*

((Oh and I just saw the english lyrics. Heart felt!))