You Think My Life Is Some Fairytale?

Selena in this video represents myself. This video is a way of venting and sharing my story.
& Im not gonna lie im extremely afraid of sharing my story, but part of healing after something traumatic is accepting it, and you have to tell your story to get it out. So making this video & sharing it with you guys is my way of healing.
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My story- I had a best friend, who I was friends with since 4th grade. & An amazingly sweet, funny, overall great boyfriend. Not like we were on the way to marriage or anything, but like any relationship he meant alot to me, as did my family. Things just started falling apart, my mom out of the blue said she wanted a divorce from my dad, my best friend started hanging out with my boyfriend...which me being the trusting friend, doubted anything...until she told me she liked him, and I caught them being overly flirty with one another. Having your best friend & boyfriend betray you like that has to be one of the worst feelings ever, but it got worse when my Grandpa, the only person at the time who could make me laugh throughout all the problems I had, got diagnosed with prostate cancer & lost his life to it. With all the problems in my life I felt as though i somehow deserved these things happening to me, as if it was my fault "maybe I didnt spend enough time with my boyfriend" "maybe I led him to cheat on me" "maybe my best friends better than me which is why he wanted her" "maybe my granda died because I wasnt appreciating him enough" "maybe my parents divorced cause of me"...SO many things went through my head that convinced me that it was all my fault, and I felt like I needed to cause myself pain instead of everyone else doing it for me. So I started cutting, and in the moment you forget your problems sure...but then your left with these deep scars that constantly remind you of why you cut to begin with, leaving you feeling completly miserable and ashamed that you hit that low of a time in your life. But when you hit rock bottom the only place you can go is up from there, & thats when I started therapy, stopped cutting,moved in with my dad & met a guy at school who makes me forget I ever had a past because he makes me just want to think of the future as cheesy as that sounds.
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Just want to say that your life can be horrible, miserable, tragic, anything....but things do get better & when they do you appreciate life THAT much more because you know that life isnt always easy, and that you no longer take happiness for grantid, so when you have it, its just amazing. & ALWAYS remember "you were given this life because you are STRONG enough to live it"
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Its crazy to think that just putting my life into clips could get an honor #82 - Most Discussed (Today) - Entertainment& spark SO much discussion. im amazed, & thank you guys so much for being so supportive. i love you all =]

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• prettyinpink987

[regmae13]

wow, you are an amazing editor.can i ask what programme you use??

i always wanna have a skill like you:) you can take this anywhere:)

[prettyinpink987]

@regmae13 thank you & I use sony vegas 9 to edit

[prettyinpink987]

@vampirekisses35 first off its T-W-I-S-T-E-D & W-R-I-S-T & i dont care if you think this video is dumb, your calling my life story dumb..whatever, but dont be rude enough to comment saying that, its pathetic.

[MnMaggii]

@ugly4u21 I use to cut, it went on for over a year, once I started, I just couldn`t stop and once it was over, the cuts and scars where still there (along with everything else) to remind me why I`d started.

You need to stop,it won`t help you in the long run, it only causes more pain. I know its hard, but tell someone, your guidance counselor is a great place to start.

I haven`t cut in 8 months,when you stop,when you start to get better,its the best feeling in the world,I promise you

[lisiemusic]

2:06

[dorkmagnetbithez]

This made me cry....this is an awesome vid

[x12pur09ple95x]

Im so sorry for ur loss. This is a very emotional video. I really liked it. But the fact that its a true story about u is sad. I'm really sorry. I hope things get better for u -3

[mandusanchez]

Wow.. You´re so.. strong to can survive to all this..

[taintedswift11]

omg this is awesome! almost made me cry!

Good job!

PS. what song did you use?

[84itssteph]

B E S T V I D E O E V E R.!!!

[ilove3jonasbros]

...This video reminds me of myself. My parents got divorced, my bestfriend and I started fighting, and my life just fell apart. o.o

[honeybabe2277]

wow why would someone dislike this? u had the guts to come out and say things no one would have the guts to say....im VERY touched by this and it made me cry. i hope u are ok :)

[Storm05131]

what's the song? amazing video btw :)