(old video) first manic episode

About a manic episode I had when I was seventeen, which led to me being diagnosed as manic-depressive (not that that means much of anything). I follow this with a poem.

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[RudiGotSoul]

I was recently reading about Human Sacrifice. In this book it talked about how those who were sacrificed somehow had more "spiritual energy". If you look at history "we" (crazy folks, left-handed people, intelligent wom(b)men) were always put on the fires first... I don't know if there's a connection, but...

[alexonthex]

Could you please elaborate a little? What are you trying to say?

[1787dude]

trying ot get them to put me on ativan,they dont wanna givvie to me, but I think my anxiety is triggering my whole disorder.the only time i dont have anxiey is when I break down.i wanna try that before I go on lithium or halidol kuz those are strong harsh meds that make me feel depressed.and I cant take antidepressants, they make me irritable and angry,I feel cornered allll the damn time..

[alexonthex]

I think ativan is a good drug as far as drugs go. I've taken it, and it works. You don't have to take a drug you don't want to take. I agree that those meds (that you mentioned) can really bum you out, and make the overall situation worse. It sounds like you know what to do more so than your psychiatrist or therapist. And well, that, I think, is often the case.

-Alex

[dyingofpoetry]

No, they don't CURE it; they TREAT it. There is no cure.

[jedeyegypsy]

very brave of you and compassionate for you to share!! Thank you!

[mcmlxixtube]

@SEROQUELNATION All caps? Just lovely. Apparently the DSM 5 is going to reverse that, at least with respect to ADs. The thing is there are a lot of people who go nuts (not a clinical term) when treated for depression with antidepressants. These people clearly cannot be unipolar depressives. So what are they/we? Also a better review of their history usually reveals at least one hypomania. The new and correct thinking is that a clinician should always rule out BP before diagnosing depression.

[SEROQUELNATION]

DRUG INDUCED PSYCHOSIS/MANIA SHOULD NEVER BE GROUNDS FOR A DIAGNOSIS OF BIPOLAR (THIS INCLUDES ANTIDEPRESSANTS). PLUS, EVEN WITHDRAWAL FROM MEDS MEANT TO TREAT THESE SYMPTOMS CAN CAUSE THEM. PROPER DIAGNOSIS CAN ONLY BE MADE WHEN THESE FACTORS ARE NOT PRESENT. If ANY drugs or medications were in your system when you experienced mania, be sure to consult various professionals to get the proper treatment. "Mental illness caused by improper psychiatric treatment"- What's the DSMIV Code for that???

[Psych0o14]

thinking out loud literally can you hear me? not until i talk

[TaZWhite]

@RudiGotSoul That makes no sense!

[DMGZ91]

i felt the same way, in my manic state i believed i could change the world , and then i felt stripped of my abilities when pills became a part of my life, nd for some reason being in that state. i was probably the happiest person alivee

[superflynn290483]

did any of ye guys study the moon position and study your disorder to the point of clocking how many hours,days,weeks, in mania and depression over a long period of time.

[pygar020]

Me Bipolar thinking tru the years, its not fair

But after years of emotional violance i can say

I like myself.



[quartercherries]

@dyingofpoetry as of yet!

[1787dude]

thats just something psychiatrists like to say to make u think u need meds,theres no scientific proof that we need meds.i dont take meds and i function well ok, i just cant work kuz it makes me kinda schizo,i will see things, i think this is more of a spiritual and psychological disease of the soul,i just want my benefits, ive done meds and i hated it, it made me depressed or irritable, it made me feel dead inside, its just not for me, when im manic i dont do stupid shit like other bipolars do

[jesusislord27]

@1787dude why do refuse medicines. If you were diabetic would you take those meds to keep you healthy. Bipolar is a actual disease, it has to be treated as such. I hate to tell you this but if dont get treatment, you will end up in jail, dead, or basically unable to function at all just do it please