A Trichotillomania Story

trichsurvivor's webcam video November 21, 2010, 10:54 PM, A journal entry of my Trich

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[sokissme800]

omg this is exactly what i do. it sounds so weird when u actually say it. i hate it so much cuz its so embarrassing. but its just me.

[uslut45]

while watching this v. i cryed .... :"( every word .. its true :"( theres nothing i can do to stop nothing :( and i truly feel bad when my people say.. omg is she pulling her hair . i always wished i had long hair .. :( but how will my wish ever come true :""""(

[ApocalypticZebra]

You are amazing hun.

[Samphie7]

... Hair isn't that big a deal for me, neither is looking good, yet somehow I still feel that type of guilt and shame. I think my way of viewing hair etc. and the natural guilt and realisation that this sort of thing isn't 'normal' kind of cancel each other out to some extend, which is why my feelings on the subject are so hard to pinpoint -- and why I can never find motivation to stop.

[Samphie7]

I can relate; the only difference is that I pull the bulb of with my fingers. One thing I'm becoming more aware of when comparing my feelings towards trich with others' is that whilst I would like long hair, I don't feel specifically sad or angry at myself for pulling. Also the guilt I feel is more about the time I've wasted and what people would think about that. My feelings are never really about my hair; it's more of a strange sense of shame that I can't completely rationalise...

[Cballin]

Wow, to the T, i do the exact same thing with my facial hair, pull, examine, rub it on my lip, throw it away and on to the next one, looking for the sweet bulby one.. how do you deal with it??

I've thought about hypno to help me stop, what do you think?

[JnnaXoXo]

this video made me tear up. It makes my mom cry because she said i'm turning myself into a monster. my eye brows are patchy and thin. they used to be thick and dark. now it looks like i had an accident with a razor everyday. it's been a year and a half since I looked like myself.

[smiley121101]

I have it to ive had it for 2 years since i was ten im 12 now I know how you feel every word

[katherynlily6]

I am so surprised right now. I thought I was the only one who did that with the bulb.

[alwayswas28]

@RebeccaDominate I have too been pulling since I was 13. I am 22 now. I still have faith that I will be able to overcome this someday! You should have that hope and faith too! I read last night that if you hold something in both hands while you watch TV, that should help. I am going to start trying this!