The Jonas Sister- Chapter 11: Pain

Chapter 11
Pain

It hurts so bad. I can't take it anymore. I'm not talking about my wounds from the accident. I'm talking about the interior pain that haunts me since that night. I'm trash. That's what I feel like. TRASH. He took me, used me and just threw me away. The worst is that I trusted him. I LIKED him. No because of him, me life is hell. Even worse is such thing is possible.

I go to my desk and try doing so geometry homework that Melanie brought form school for me. I can't. My head is filled with other thoughts, dark thoughts. I would have wanted to die in that accident. DIE. It would certainly been better than all the suffering I'm going threw.

I look at my things. My compass is there, staring at me. I stop thinking. I grab it. I start putting the pointy side on my arm. I put more and more pressure on it. Then, blood appears. I draw a short line as I silently cry. I stop. I take a big breath. It's been a long time since I've breathed freely

Knock! Knock!

Sh**! I quickly put everything away and pull my sleeve down to hide the wound. Kevin comes in. I wipe my tears.

- Hey..What's the matter? What's going on with you? We're all very worried. We don't recognize you these days, he says
- Well you know, people change in 8 months. How could you recognize me since you've been away so long!
- That doesn't explain what you did about the ring! Here I brought, put it on.

I start crying again.

- N..nooo
- Why n...

His expression suddenly changes. He seems to have understood something.

- Katie, don't tell me you...you...

I start crying even harder. He moves back from me slowly, like if he was disgusted of me.

- I.., I can't believe it! How could you?
- I..I
- What have you become!?
-...
- Who? Tell me who!
- E..Eric... Eric Doyle
- That snob that lives a block from here!?
- I'm sorry

He doesn't say anything more and walks towards the door. Now, he hates me too. Soon, all my family will.

- I didn't want to ! I scream quickly

He slowly turns around.

- What do you mean?
- I...I told him to stop, but he wouldn't. He was a lot stronger than me. He hold me down and I couldn't do anything. I...I..

I start crying again. He moves closer to me.

- Oh god Katie! That means he...he rapped you. No..NO!

I fall down to the ground. I can't take the pain. He picks me up and sits on the bed with me on him. I cry on his chest and I think he is crying too. He slowly is caressing my hair at the same time. After a while, I pull away from him.

- Kev..Kevin, promise you won't tell anyone...
- But, we're your family Katie; we will help you through this.
- I'm not ready for them to know yet.
- Okay, I understand, but someday you'll have to tell them.
- Thanks Kev, I don't know what I'd do without you.
- Never forget, that no matter what, I'll always be there for you. I promise I'll never let anyone hurt you again. NEVER.
- Okay
- But you have to put the ring on, or they'll all know it before you have the time to tell them
- But if I put it on, I fell like a liar
- It doesn't count Katie. A rape doesn't count.

I shiver.

- Please don't say that word. Okay, I'll put it on.

He takes my hand and slowly puts the beautiful ring to my finger. I look at him and give him a big hug. He's my big brother and I know I can trust him.

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[JonasBrozforever]

She's a very bad emo person. YOUR SUPOSE TO USE A RAZOR BLADE! DER!

I used a pointy hair stick once. Then I realized it was stupid, & I had something to hide from my Mom.

[gserevitch]

Whoa! This isn't supposed to show that cutting is a good thing. There's no "good way" of doing it. It just isn't something that's good. Be careful & take care of yourself.

Mercédess♥

[totallyluvinJB123]

ouch!! ive done that with my compass before but it was an accident but i did it at school and no one believed that it was an accident so i got in huge trouble and had to go through therapy for 'thoughts of suicide!' oops!! now i hate those things...

[gserevitch]

Whoa! Hope you don't do it anymore! It really doesn't help in any way...:( I wrote this chapter not because I personally ever cutted but because of some girls at school that did it. I talked to one of them cuae I couldn't understand why anyone would do something like that.

[totallyluvinJB123]

actually i just started doing it yesterday and now i can't stop. and i do it cuz my life's screwed up. but i use a razor blade

[gserevitch]

Ok, I'm like really late replying to this. But..you really should stop. I don,t know you personally, but I'm sure you're awesome and don't deserve to treat yourself that way. Take care :)

[xoxo2cutet4uXXX]

wait they did it o.o gosh i forget things this fast someone!!! ANSWER ME!

[s0fTbaLLl0v3R]

it doesnt count!!!!

[moviesgalore100]

so awesome. i love the sister brother bonding thing. haha

[PKevinJonas2]

I love Kevin ... Eric is a pice of SHIT!

[totallyluvinJB123]

thanks! and yeah, i stopped a while ago... im better now!

[argentinachika]

O.O

[boredwithyou2]

u made me cry

lol

im a new reader

[ilovenickjonas13210]

whoah that sucks!!!

[CathJonas]

this chapter made me cry.

i dont know why. (A)

[themaddieshowgirl]

Holy Pickles!

[OJDpatient3]

one word...intense. lol. i love these. the ending is so sweet. :)