Melancholy Symphony: Crawl.

4.
Our, I guess you could call it a date?Ended., He asked me was I ready and I said yes. He walked over and pulled my chair out, helping me up as he lead me out to his truck.
"Are you going home?" He asked. "As appossed to what?" I asked.
"Staying with me." He said as he glanced over and smiled.
I smiled back, he got my answer.
He started driving.. and driving... and driving.. until I drifted off to sleep. I awoke to the sound of my phone ringing. It was an email. I barely got emails so if I ever did get one I'd read it right away.
Without opening my eyes I retrieved the phone from my pocket and shoved it towards him.. mummbling for him to read it to me out loud.
He pulled over and started..
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Hello Natalia:

I am done. I let go and let God. You do you. We will not allow you to manipulate any of us anymore. Play mind games where you are at. Please do not come over her and stop lying on us.

You were not mentally, physically or emotionally abused by me. We all tried to talk to you, We all asked you why you felt the way you felt and we are going to let you do you, just like you wanted to. We are granting you your wish to move out and never see any of us again.

So we will not call you and please do not call us. We will not come there and please do not come here.




I am sending movers to bring you the rest of your things and they will pick up the rest of our stuff that is over there on the same day. I

I love you.
We will miss you but we are letting you go, as you requested.
Good bye and God bless.
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By the time he'd finished the letter I was wide awake. Astonished.
I stared at the onlooking road.. deep in thought.
"Are you okay" he asked softly.
I didnt asnwer. I didnt know. Was I alright? My mother just practically disowned me. I WAS alright. But was I supposed to be? No, Im not.
"Continue driving please." I asked.
He did. As we drove.. as the minutes passed.. reality set in. This wasnt a good thing. To some people this letter may seem.. pointless, but this was just sprung on me. I didnt know how to respond to it. I didnt know what to think. I mean, just yesterday she was talking to me like I'd never left the house. Honestly, could an adult be this childish? I think my body went into shock because just then I felt something I havent felt in a long time. A tear slowly rolled down my cheek. WHAT? Stop it! I dont cry! I havent cried in LITERALLY years. I looked up to the ceiling to stop the tears from flowing.. but they kept coming. He glanced over at me.. he looked so sad for me.
He pulled to the side of the road and looked over at me. I felt him looking, but I refused to look back. I refused to let anyone see me cry. He knew it.
"Get out of the car" he said. "what?" I answered.
"Get out." I didnt budge.
He exited the truck and calmly walked over to my door, opening it. Yet again he told me to get out, and this time I did. I stepped down onto the ground and wondered why it couldnt have been water.. or fire or quicksand.
"Look at me" he said............. I did.
"Its okay to be upset" he said.........................I looked away.
"Its okay to show your feelings. Its okay to be angry. Its okay to cry."
With that last statement I looked up.
"Its never okay to cry."
He started walking and I followed.
While he was walking he went on and on about how leaving things balled inside can be the worst thing to do. As he was talking I broke down. I couldnt do it anymore, be strong. I wasnt.
I painted this big pretty picture of everything now the rain has washed it away. I sat on a treestump and cried. Once he'd noticed that I had stopped.. he turned and ran to me. Wrapping me in his arms.
Making me feel safe.
Making me feel loved.
"Itll be okay" he said as he gripped his arms around me tighter.

I held her in my arms, letting her cry.
Soon she settled down.
Her face, tearstained along with my shirt.
I didnt mind.
"How do you love.. without experiencing the feeling." She stated.
I never knew that you can learn so much about a person in just one simple question. Such a deep question. I thought back to my life and honestly, i didnt know. In that moment, I really appreciated my life, my family, my friends. If I didnt have them I dont know where Id be. Certainley not as strong as she is. Or as strong as she seemed to be.
"I guess... the same way you learn to walk." I said.

"You crawl."

You never get a second chance at first impressions, and you never forget the moment you meet someone.
Today, I pursued a beautiful girl,
And today.. I learned to love, through someone elses pain.
And today I made a vow I wouldnt let her feel that way.
I'd NEVER let her feel that way.
Even if it kills me.

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[desteneed]

awee

you just made my day!

thank you so much darling.

love you too!!!

sorry for taking forever..

im going to try my best to post more often.

[AmiiLeex3]

A-mazing.

Seriously i love this, its so deep!

I'm glad you have posted! :D

Loveee yooou! xo