Inside A Cutter's Mind

Excerpts from my journal I have but often times forget to write in. I focused on my thoughts that had to do with cutting.

Yes, I'm Catholic.

And the song is: Love in the Western World by Chris Koster

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[TornLoveAndHate]

Im 13, i started cutting at 12 years old. and your right all i wanted to do was cut when things got bad. I did untill my mom and grandma found out what i was doing. We cried all night and now, whenever i feel sad and look at a knife or my sissors i think to myself " do you remember how grandma felt, how it killed her inside, what it did to the family, but most of all what it did to you?" And now i i couldnt dream of self harming again

[MrTheboy9690]

@imunderyourbed13 just think their are so many people like us

[Brittany4465]

look i do this to i couldnt stop i do it sometimes still im trying to quit but........ Its so hard. im not gonna lie i cryed when i saw this. But that the point of trying to quit. 2 of my friends know i told my bible study teacher to get help for me.. Its so hard. And if u or when you quit you have scars to remind you it sucks. people joke about it & i sit there and dont do nothing what if thet find out are they going to judge me. Will they not want to be my friend anymore... I need help

[valeriasokoslova]

:'( i feel the same way i start cutting myself since i was 13 years old now im almost 17 and im still into this my parents know about my problem but they dont seem to care they never care about what i want about my dreams about what i feel,i have scars a lot of scars and i hate when people joke about it,i hate when they laugh and they think that this is all about attention and its not true once you start cutting you cant stop......... i guess i will always be alone

[SarbearHatemail]

I stopped for about a good 6 months but started soon I always think about it all the time I do it still when I feel hopeless.. I just did it right now I'm spelling regret in my leg... People like us ad others need help but to afraid of the out come I noe that :/

[KaiK0r]

@emalee181 i've certainly heard of the second and the first sounds like it's connected with the movie that came out. thanks for the suggestions.

[emalee181]

@KaiK0r Ok Ill kepp it in mind. Thanks :) You should check out To Save A Life: Dare To Make Your Life Count. I dont know who wrote it but its reallllly good. I highly recommend it. And I dont know if your male or female, but if your a girl then Lies Young Women Believe is rly good to.

[KaiK0r]

@emalee181 maybe. if you'd like more info like this check out the book "inside a cutter's mind" by Jerusha Clark and Dr. Earl Henslin. It's fantastic.

[emalee181]

@KaiK0r I totally get what your saying. And thanks for putting it in that perspective. Im starting a ministry WeAreJewels (.com) and that will be good to know. Keep on spreading awareness. May save a life one day.

[amykingston1989]

i haven't cut in a year and i still think about it everyday.