Episode 155;
Demi flinches at the sharpness of his voice. He can suddenly see the fright in her eyes so he cowers down, sending a glare to his mom before going to sit beside Demi. "Sorry." He mutters but his voice is still rough.
Tears start to glisten in Demi's eyes knowing she'd just been exposed. But Joe doesn't care. He needed his answers one way or another. "What the hell were you planning to do when I start to notice?"
"Don't. Just.. are you mad at me?" She whimpers helplessly.
"What.." He lets out a loud sigh. "Demi, what the fuck do you expect me to feel right now?"
Demi's glad that Samantha and Nick give them some privacy as Joe continues with his little breakdown. "Why would you tell her, huh? Just what was going through your head at the time?"
She felt like a child under his gaze. When she wouldn't answer, it only frustrated Joe more. "Are you even listening to me?"
She doesn't want to look at him. "She was just there when I found out.." Her voice is small compared to his. "What was I supposed to do?"
Joe doesn't have the heart to look at her. "You.. you're supposed to tell me." He says with gritted teeth. It sounds like a joke in his head. He made no sense of what was coming out of his mouth. So what if he had been the first to know. But right now his logic was the fact that Demi kept something so big from him. He's fast to reconstruct the anger in his face. "I deserved to know!"
"You were thousands of miles away. And you know what, I was scared Joe! But you were off in New York, trying to hurt me!" At first he's taken back with her choice of reason.
He's suddenly disgusted. "I was in that situation because you blew me off." He scowls.
"I couldn't.." She sighs through her nose, shaking her head at him. "I couldn't talk to you, I couldn't listen to your voice. I was afraid that you'd know.. that you'd find out." Joe scoffs harshly at her. "You'd leave for good. You'd stay in New York and never come back." She glares at him when he doesn't say anything. She's angry that her pain is unfazing him. "My mom was dying and my sisters hated me for choosing you. I was alone. I was alone, Joe. I had no one and it was eating me alive. She.. your mom was the only one."
"No, I was there. You could have called me any time of the day but you shut me out. So don't fucking start with me!" He yells back.
"So if I called you and told you I was pregnant," He almost flinched at the word. The realization was like a wave, catching him by surprise. "Can you honestly tell me you'd take the first flight back home and leave New York?" He looks up at her, her eyes stinging with tear. "Because even now, as we speak, while you're right next to me.. I can feel you pulling away. You wanna leave me."
He can't speak. Because its true; he's scared. So he just sits there with a stone stricken face. "Right?!" Demi lifts herself up and smacks her hand against his shoulder as hard as she could, pushing him with her hands until she falls limp against the bed. "You want to run away from me! You're just angry because it's a less pathetic excuse for you to walk out that door."
He just watches her hunched over the bed as she clutched his dress shirt from dinner. Demi was the last person he'd expect that word from. She was always building him up, telling him how inferior that word was compared to him. But he couldn't be angry at her for it. Because even after all this time, after everything Demi has given him, he still couldn't make it better for her. He didn't know how to make things right. He was still her reason for the tears. He did this to her.
Demi lifts her head when she feels him stand and her firm strong grip on him suddenly becomes desperate and longing. Her angry eyes are replaces with fear. "Where are you going?"
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I haven't done this in a while but.. 80 comments for the next? (: I miss seeing all the feedback.
wow....it seems like just yesterday he was dating that slut trying to get in demis pants or raping demi....or getting whiped by his dad which brough them back together...now there having a baby joe relized this once before but his life without demi is non-existant he needs her and hell soon grow to love thier child <3
keep up the great writing so insperational
P.S. someone knock some since into that boy before i do :P
alwaysandforeveryou1 2 months ago 4
@alecervantes i am like this too and i already read it three or four times and i still cant stop it :D
annelielove 2 months ago