We Are Broken (Chapter 64: Vulnerability)

[Nick's P.O.V.]
"So now you're singing my songs?" I ask. Oops.
"You spoke first, you lose," she says as the sticks her tongue out.
"Whatever, you know you were dying to talk to me," I reply.
"Yeah picture it," she says.
"Actually, I can."
She frowns at me, "Go away."
"But you sang my song!"
"On the paper, it said it was a duet, plain and simple. The song was pretty, I sang along. Be grateful."
"Okay," I smile, "I love you!"
She looks at me for a few seconds, "I love you too. But no more bets."

She puts my guitar on the bed and sits in my lap.

"Nicky, we need to talk," she says.

"You aren't breaking up with me are you?" I joke.

"It's too late for that," she replies.

"Oh ha ha," she grins, "But what's up?" The grin is replaced by a frown so I immediately follow up with another question:
"Are you alright?"

"Ish."

"Ish?"
"I'm alright-ish," she says.

"Elaborate."

"Uh, okay. Well my mom is, y'know being herself but my dad wants to meet you and AJ but..."
"But?"
"Well we'd have to take a six hour flight to his home in New York but that's irrelevant, I can sleep on the plane and be mildly decent when we land. It's just, I'm not sure if I want to be in the middle of all this parental drama, you know? Zach is 'on Dad's side,' which is why he went to college in New York and lived there with Dad. He's still very... Friendly--I guess--with my mom but he didn't agree with her decision to divorce my dad. Whereas I am on my Mom's side. If you want a divorce because you've fallen out of love, get one. It's as simple as that. Choosing my mom's side made my dad not talk to me. No birthdays, Christmases, or any other holidays. It broke my heart and--apparently--his. I'm tentative about even speaking to him again because of the hurt that is sure to come with this. And I don't want anymore of my past spilling into my future," she sniffles and I see tears, "Because once again I'll hurt someone I really care about because when it comes to matters of the heart I am so fucked up that I can't seem to get anything right. I don't want to hurt people, it just sort of happens that way and since that's a pretty shitty excuse to hurt someone I've just tried to avoid the subject of love altogether. Then you happened," she smiles and touches my cheek, "You showed me that I don't ALWAYS hurt people but I'm still scared," Her mood changes to sad again, "I don't like being scared, it makes me feel vulnerable and weak, so.. so, I don't like talking about this but it has to be done. And..." she sobs so I take the opportunity to interrupt:

"HOLD UP!"
"What?" she sniffles.

"You don't hurt everyone you know, you need to stop thinking that way. Everyone gets scared, it's not immature and does not represent vulerability. And you are allowed to make your own decisions, people aren't always going to like them but that's life. Do you think my brothers approved of me dating someone after knowing her only for three and a half weeks and having never gone on a "proper date" with her? Or hell, dating someone after living like I didn't exsist for three years? Telling someone about my entire life who was still basically a stranger? You need to stop being so hard on yourself. You are critisizing yourself too harshly. Calm down a little. Everything will be fine," I say. She leans her head on my chest and is silent for a few seconds.

"How can you be sure that everything will ALWAYS work out fine?"

"I have faith," I reply.

"Something I obviously don't have."
"No shit."

"Not nice."

"It's the truth."
She presses her lips to mine and I smile.

"Do you really want to meet my dad, as in, talk to him; have him say "hey son!" kind of meeting and not three hours before our wedding. Are you sure that your first meeting wasn't good enough?" she asks.

"Yes, I want to meet your father. When Aiden gets married aren't you going to want to know his wife?"
"Yeah but I've always been here for my kid and I always will be."

"I know you will," I kiss her forehead, "Just cut your dad some slack."

"I won't do it for him but I'll do it for you," she says.

"Good enough."
"I'm going to go call him now," she says.

"Okay, hurry back," I say, not bothering to hide my devilish grin.

"You naughty, naughty man."
"Of course."

She chuckles softly and the sound is... sweet. I can see that I've successfully taken her out of her depressing thoughts so I smile.

She smiles back at me and for some reason, it's different. But... Good different.

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[cecesingergrrl]

lmfao, of course <3 he was sweet and I'm glad you liked it XD

[cecesingergrrl]

lmfao, I am so sorry, haha. and I love AJ too lol.

[xxlilxxkweenxx]

"HOLD UP!" I laughed when Nick said that. I don't really know why. Nick us SO sweet! I really liked this chapter! :)

[taganx]

aww nicks so sweet

you know i dont like you very much atm,i cant stop listeing to the song from the last chapter and now im doing a cover of it for my music gcse because it was the only one i could think of when i wanted to use demi lovato catch me :L so i have to learn the whole song on guitar by next week :(

anyway aww nicks so sweet,i love AJ,i just felt like saying it :L

[cecesingergrrl]

thank you :) and yeah... he was :)

[kookoobb]

I liked this chapter a lot. Nick was sweet :)