Bloodstream ; Elena

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
reaching for the phone because i cant fight it anymore
wondering if I'm ever on your mind
because it happens all the time .

[ Elena's Intro )

My chest felt compressed . I felt deprived of air . I need Him . A tear fell slowly down my cheek . I can't . i wont , without him i cant live . I sat on my bed writing my last journal entry .

My Death Note . The reason as to why , i couldn't bare to live like this anymore .

A year ago my life seemed all "perfect" and happy . But i keep losing the people i love most in my life . Both my Parents were dead . i couldn't even bare think about him without a tear escaping from the rim of my eye .

i Placed the letter on my bed & made my way to my balcony .

"One" . I counted, looking down .
"Two" i breathed in deeply , Wanting him to be down there , ready to catch me .
"Three" I Readied myself . Climbing over the railing ,I closed my eyes . taking one last breath .

"Salvatore" i said last , as i plummeted to my death .

I woke up , Looking around . Everything white .

Is this .. Heaven ? i said my words didn't come out of my mouth .

Nothing was heard . I looked around as i panicked in disbelief .

I'm Still alive .

"no , No " I gasped .

"How is this possible ?" I tried to move but the neck brace held my head down & the cast around my leg made my body much heavier then i anticipated .

I ripped out all the wire's on my arm . My eyelids closed a tear strolling down my cheek . My heart monitor slowly died down .

I didn't want to live simply because you were gone.
I hurt myself so much because I needed you around.

I hated the fact that when we were together , I had our child in my womb & my body wouldn't let me be.

I wish I would've kept the baby to have someone to remind me of your smile . Of the love I have for you . A creation we had made . Like our love . It flourished .

Until everything went wrong .

Even if the baby would have survived . I couldn't bare through telling him ,Them .

I have a big secret and its killing me inside. I will never know who the father of my baby was.

I remained confused and dazed about my feelings. At the same time I was completely sure of them.

As to whom did those feelings belonged to , I couldn't answer my question.

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