I'm Back

I am glad that you are well. It is good to see you happy.

I think it is possible that I was under heavy demonic attack and lost site of what true discipleship looks like. I was willing to do whatever it took to spread the gospel to the point of martyrdom God willing. Perhaps what happened to me is a result of a mental disorder like schizophrenia and an overactive immagination or I was assaulted by spirits from hell. Now I am thinking clearly and am taking Zyprexa but suffering the side effects. I don't want to go back down the same road though.

Well the situation got pretty bad. I started hallucinating pentagrams everywhere and had terrible blasphemous hellish thoughts for weeks. I'm back on Zyprexa now and the voices which filled my head are much quieter. The whole psychotic episode began after praying some serious prayers. I prayed to be further consecrated to the Lord and prayed to be as dangerous to Satan as possible. I'm not sure really what happened because I felt fine before all this went down. I'm speculating.

Well Jesus saved me when I was in bad shape. I did a lot of drugs and am perhaps suffering the consequences. After going off my meds and without using any drugs for about six months I was feeling great and much passion for the Lord. Going out and wanting to preach the gospel. One thing led to another and before long I was dipping out of university 3 weeks before graduation on a mission. Jesus said we would do the things he did and greater so I tried walking on water while on my quest.

Good to hear man. I stumbled upon your video about the meds not working and posted a comment, then I noticed you were into a spiritual search involving Buddhism. Sounded a lot like me before Jesus saved me. I was about to try and contact you and point you towards Jesus but he found you before I did. I was seeking enlightement and had thoughts of being Jesus before being admitted to a mental institution.