testimony

The idea of "false representations
of reality" introduced by Gurdjieff
in the Tales is based on the idea
that the feeling and thinking
centers, capable of emotional
sensing and of mentation
respectively, are ordinarily
"unformed" through absorption
of their rightful impressions
by the false emotional and
intellectual centers of the
psyche and receive impressions
selectively as though according
to a foreign program, or virus.

That "virus" for me was LSD
years ago and has been a long
process of "clearing" and
"cleansing" and the making
of stupid videos has all
been a part of this long
and great labor for me
of unburying and
purging of
terrible
psychopathy.
I already have
a so-called "reputation"
for being a "loonie-loser-
drug-user" and I am just
trying to heal is all.
I will suffer to the
end of my days with
terrible brain
and nerve
damage. I
have discovered
this method of
writing a useful
one for painfully
looking at myself,
my own insanity,
and have been
very successful
in role playing
it ALL TO HELL,
and healing as
well as purging
a great deal of
it, AND NOT JUST
FOR MYSELF BUT
FOR OTHERS
ALSO.

And all of this for
having experienced
almost every state of
consciousness possible
on LSD from horror, despair
and "nightmare" of terrible
inner-emptiness and also
what were tremendously
lustful "depravity states"
on one end of the spectrum
to the other of states of
bliss beyond imagination and
equal with any state of cosmic
consciousness ever attained by
any and every religious
personage of the past
and this would explain,
perhaps, the visions of
Jesus Christ, of Buddha,
of Saint Mohammad, and
many others on a great
so-called "cosmic"
level.

The healing process for
me is to separate the
psychopathy and
remember the
actual what
are definite
and recorded
"objective
states".

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[Shachermacher]

Are you doing some exercise or physical activity where is this sensations involved? Contact me for consultation if interest.

[qbertzz]

This is very good to see a fellow spirit making sense of

everything, keep it up my comrade. Remember, pay

close attention and never lose hope.

[ucsteve]

I think you've raised the bar once again for those of us that draw inspiration and

healing from the kindness of your heart. I call you my friend, James, thank you so much for sharing your stories. SssSs

[JerryCurl34]

This process you speak of I have been going through as well, I can say without sentimentallity that I love you.